Promises were meant to be broken...

2009-11-16T15:03:00.001+08:00

OH DAMN YOU PISSED ME OFF BAD DIS TIME. Dun test my patience. Trust me, you will regret it, even if u are a girl. FUCK MAN. IT WILL ALWAYS BE HIM RIGHT?! ALWAYS HIM. WHOSE UNFAITHFUL NOW?!!!! ONE MORE TIME. ONE MORE TIME YOU SCREAM AND HANG UP THE PHONE, youll wish u were never born.

One final week

2009-11-07T12:35:00.004+08:00

Fuck this shit man. I smsed one girl, wif no intention of hurting you... cos i felt u would be okay wif it. Due to this stupid mistake, u hate me nw. U wanna hurt me nw. U wanna kill me now. Yes. Im unfair. Yes, ive hurt u more than anyone else in the world. So yes, u have the right to hate me. But... i dunno... I just noe dat i need u. i love u. I need u like air. My eyes are swollen. My heart shattered. My body unable to move. But u wun care anymore would u. Just several days ago... u said... " I love you" and i smiled bak happily. U said... u are happy wif me and sad when im sad. But u aint sad now are u? Ur happy... wif others, while im crumpled up inside my empty bedroom, begging for another chance which i will never be given. And worse part of all, i didnt mean to hurt u dis time. Not at all. I didnt expect such a perfect day, to change into a nightmare that was excruciatingly painful. I asked for forgiveness and u gave me silence. After all these months wif u, my heart has turned frail. easily hurt... Now ur phone is switched off. And so are ur ears. You wun listen to wad i have to say cos u say i will not be forgiven this time. And for dat i will burn in hell for eternity. To tell u the truth, i dun mind. I dun mind at all. I will gladly burn in hell for u. I just dunno wad to do anymore. you wun listen, u wun pick up the phone, u ignore me, and u cant give a god damn fuck bout how i am doing. Maybe when u found out i was dead, ull realize wad u did to me. You ask me to forget u... BUT HOW THE FUCK CAN I?! U MADE ME FUCKING FALL IN LOVE WIF YOU, AND NOW U THROW ME AWAY LIKE IM NOTHING? Nothing can save me now. i just wish dis all never happened, and that day would have ended up like it should... perfect. God damn my fucking mistakes. God damn my fucking heart, for not caring for you and mistreating u. SOMEBODY TELL ME WAD TO DO. Cos u wun be there anymore. You wun be there to help me when i fall. You wun be there to comfort me anymore. And u definitely wun be there for me anymore, to tell me those three words dat give me reason to smile. Dammit. This has to be the most painful experience i ever had. FUCK. IVE LOST EVERYTHING!!!!! BOTH My grandmas left me, my studies are failing, i can feel my friends drifting away, everything hurts, everything i do is wrong, TONS of ppl hate me, and the person i rely on most to be there... the person who would without fail cheer me up at the end of the day wants to... HAS left me. I dunno how u do it baby. Maybe there is someone else over there comforting you. Maybe its ur god damn BAND which always without fail makes u smile and happy, sth i was never able to do. After all ive done and after all that ive tried, BAND won in the end. She is willing to leave me but not dat god damn CCA. I dun like assuming.. but evidence keeps telling me to. Maybe she never loved me. Maybe everyone was right. She never loved me. I mean why should she. Im a bastard to everyone, i have ego, i want what i want, im slefish beyond believe, im overpossesive, easily jealous... And judging frm wad u said yesterday.... u onli stayed wif me cos u found me pathetic. Cos i threatened u, dats why u always came bak. Not cos u love me. HAHAHAHAHAHA! I actually fell for it... good one baby. Good one. I know im pathetic. I know im useless and somebody who u should not give a fucking hell about. But Sufinasuha, i need you. I need you so much. I never slept last night. I cant stop thinking bout u. I still need you baby. Without u, im nothing... so please forgive me. For wadever love u have left. For wadever we used to be.. come bak to me. No matter wad... i will always love you sufi. always... Even if u dun. Without u, im dead. Dead.

Sorry's just nt enuf..

2009-09-14T21:17:00.001+08:00

Even death is not a fitting punishment for wad i have to you

im sorry. Ive hurt you.

very badly.

But plz, stop crying.

Pick up the phone...

D:

2009-09-12T09:49:00.002+08:00

THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO COMMENTED AND NOTICED MY HAIR!!!

Haha really appreciative.

Well forcing myself to be happy right nw. Lols.

Err.. rough morning.

lost sth very precious to me.

Doubt ill find it again.

I wish my grandma would get better.

Makes the whole family worried. D:

Pretty much it.

Thx most of u :D

Ill still be here if u want me.

Heh.

Just wish you appreciated ppl more -.-

ah well..

good luck btw,

i hope i could be there but i cant.

Sorry.

but ull be okay right?

Haiz.

Wish i would though D;

REBORN!

2009-09-10T20:25:00.008+08:00

The process

the end result :D

MY HAIR IS FINALLY STRAIGHT!

AFTER SO LONG,

MARDHI BIN MARSHAL

HAS REBORNED

HIS HAIR!!!

No this is not a lie.

I actually went to loyang point today

and reborn my hair.

My curly hair is gone and i look AWESOME.

Based on your opinion la..

Well, despite the fact i was burnt by the straightener and had to remove my back hair, it was worth it..

MARDHI IS REBORN!!!

MUAHAHAHAHA!

XP

2009-09-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

I FEEL SO DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TAKBIR!

2009-09-06T17:20:00.002+08:00

TAKBIR!

Assalamualaikum warah ma tulah hi wabarakatul!

Hey! Just came bak from RAMADHAN YOUTH CAMP also known as RYC camp.

Though it was slightly boring and annoying sometimes,

it was very beneficial.

Somehow, i tink the lessons thought came through to me..

And one of the three objectives of the camp reali changed me :

*Spark for a change*

I feel dat it really touched me somehow.

First day was ice breakers which were quite fun,

followed by some biase session of spiritual jamming

followed by giving porridge to passerbys at tampines interchange

and then some cool session of violent "bubble trouble"

(something like dog and bone but wif rugby contact and slippery floors)

Err then at night we went all the way to pasir ris park

and had to stay up all the way till sahur next morning.

I WAS FALLING ASLEEP AND PART ZOMBIE ALR lol.

but at leats we still managed to sleep for 1hr plus YAY!

And then we went home.

BEST PART OF THE CAMP WAS THE FACILITATORS!

my FACIs were Abang Mat and Abang Z.

THEY WERE THE FUNNIST PAIR iN THE WHOLE CAMP!

One is a michael jackson wannabe and the other is just a very fun big guy lol.

So ya, amazingly the camp was ok and helpful.

Though i gt serious time lapse.

Hopefully i do turn over a new leaf :D

Insyaallah..

To be a better muslim :D

FAREWELL MY GOOD FRIEND D:

2009-09-06T17:08:00.002+08:00

PANNAWIT TRIBUTE

FAREWELL PANNAWIT!!!!

haiz... so many ppl turned out for pannawits flight on Friday.

It was ard 7.45 so me and the rest made our way there earlier.

There were tons of ppl there roughly 50++.

So ya ppl frm 2d08 and 3a09 came and we wished him goodbye.

We shook hands, took many pics and hugged him.

I was grateful i managed to see him one last time.

He helped me alot back in sec 1 and 2.

I always ended up in the same PW grp as him and wif his help,

i ALWAYS do well!

Maybe dats why me science grades are so rocking!

THANK YOU PANNAWIT!!!!

I WILL NVR FORGET WAD U DID FOR ME! :D

TAKE CARE AND HAVE FUN IN AMERICA!!!

PROTOTYPE FTW!

2009-09-01T13:23:00.003+08:00

Damn me misssing witty's party.

Sorry Pannawit.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

WERE ALL GONNA MISS YOU!

(p.s. Dman u get a drivers liscence so early and i have to wait T.T)

Other than that,

FINISHED PROTOTYPE!

HIGHLY RECOMMENDED GAME TO ALL XBOX USERS!

MERCER FTW!

Hahahaha.

kk seeya.

(p.s.s I SHOULD REALLY STOP PMSING B4 I END UP LIKE A CERTAIN TEACHER I NOE)

Why do i even bother-.-

YAY!

2009-08-31T20:22:00.002+08:00

TEACHERS DAY ROCKED!

Heh..

SO went to parkway after celebratrion then headed home

Rather dull honestly D:

Im sorry for wad i did..

i tend to hurt others, u noe dat...

it was nt ur fault.

its mine.

Lets pyt this behind us shall we.

Love ur blog btw.

just like hw i love you. (:

Ouch

2009-08-27T22:12:00.002+08:00

Dying on the inside and out... am i a good person?

....

2009-08-25T20:29:00.002+08:00

NOBODY UNDERSTANDS!.
Damn failed 2 subjects and barely passed the others.
Haiz. Life sucks.
But hey mardhi.. just smile.
Ur nt allowed to be sad. :D
grats on ur results..
its okay, u go first..
ill catch up (:

WHY?!

2009-08-22T11:39:00.002+08:00

i just dun get it.
WHy does dis shit hurt so much.
WHY?!!!
I mean like its such a small matter...
And it stings to the bone.
Does dis mean sth?
Dat sth has to be done?
GOD DAMMIT PAIN!
JUST GO AWAY!
GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I close my eyes and just wish there was
someway for me to smile for one whole day.
But as i close my eyes i alr see the answer...
Nothing.
There is NOTHING i can do.
Cos nobody will change.
Nt even me..
Fked up man.
Dats wad dis is.
FKED UP.
I wanna fix it.
But hell i cant.
Not now.
Not ever.
why wun anybody learn.
WHY WUN I LEARN!
God dammit.
Hell wif di.
hell wif all of dis.

An ending..

2009-08-20T19:44:00.002+08:00

Wow.

Fasting month dis sat lol.

Heh.

Err... CTs are over.

woohoo.

Bt end year coming. scared..

DOWAN RETAIN!

Err... other than dat,

failed amaths again.

oh the joy. :D

Cya.

Why wun anyone understand?!!!

...

2009-08-17T20:57:00.000+08:00

Inevitable...

Happy Birthday...

2009-08-12T21:31:00.002+08:00

HOHOHO!

HAPPY

YELLOW

BIRTHDAY

SUFINASUHA BTE ZAINUDIN!!! :D

Hope u like all the presents u gt frm everyone ahaha...

more to come soon i heard.. heh.

pretty wild day and a very long one too...

well gt highest for geog... 22 upon 25 :B

and lowest for amath 13 upon 25 :B

me mark range is very the high.

Fluctuant as i call it (:

Well other than the usual laughing and retardness...

the day was normal...

except for the fact it was Fí's birthday la...

Truthfully, i hope u enjoyed it,

and sry i spoilt part of it wif my emoness D: ...

just hope it was perfect in the end...

once again!

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY!

Im glad u were born ((((:

Rmb wad i said in th morning..

i celebrate dis day wif u..

cos i have no regrets of meeting you..

Rmb dis line okay:

"I will always be you DayDay"

NOTHING EVER GOES MY WAY!

2009-08-11T21:01:00.002+08:00

Well for one damn thing,

i tink i did badly for geog..

i screwed physics today...

failed to get a present for tmr...

lost my damn card...

and i hav to reach home early tmr..

FOR F$%&*@^# SAKE!

WALAO!

Haiz... patience wearing thin.

I wish i was shaun...

he has patience...

he reali reali is my idol..

after wad someone did to him.

and he still has courage to nt fight bak...

wow... *salutes shaun*

HAIZ.

TODAY WAS SCREWED UP!

BAH!

I wanna give up.. -.-"

Happy early bday!

Heh..

I wish u knew...

STUCK AT HOME!!!

2009-07-30T20:37:00.002+08:00

BAKA TO THE MAX DIS TIME!!

IM STUCK AT HOME AND CANNOT GO OUT

JUST BECAUSE

YU HANG

RATTED ME OUT ON WEDNESDAY!!!!

Sure i was a little sick...

a minor 39.1 degrees...

so wad no big deal..

and yes i wanted to faint.

And yes im slightly

"socially irreseponsible"

bt nw i kena some 5 day mc to monday!!!

and i wanted to get rid of the geog test.

way to go guys-.-

Hope ur satisfied

WIMPS!!

if u tell me to close my eyes
and count to ten
and by ten ull leave me forever
ill count
1
2
3
4
5
6
7
8
9
*woops i forgot wad comes after 9?*

FTW!

2009-07-27T20:30:00.002+08:00

FTW!!!

WENT TO NDP PREVIEW OTHER DAY!!!

ROCKING AWESOME MAN!!!

SUHAIMI YUSOFF FTW!!!

FTWWWWW!!!!!

Ahh one of the best ndp shows i have seen... wait, THE best actuali.

SAW JOAQUIN ON THE BIG EYE!

THX FOR THE TICKETS MY BROTHER!!!

Other than dat... had amaths test today...

relatively easy, bt still screwed a few questions.

uhh.. oh ya, dats all-.-

me dun like horses dick... o.o

EEEEE!

*happy 14th month,

hope u like ur present :B*

FUCKED UP!

2009-07-22T20:37:00.002+08:00

Ok... life is beginning to seriously suck beyond epic proportions...

Well, Mardhis 1.0, 2.0, 3.0 are alr dead...

nw its resulted to MARDHI 3.5..

wif special insult features...

gt sooo many problems...

and nobody seems t understand or giv a damn...

LIFE OF A MARDHI.

for one thing, i did the worst thing someone could and

FINALLY gt ppl into the "*I HATE MARDHI* list"

ALSO, my studies are dropping AGAIN.

Shit la... MUST FIND WAY OUT!

Oh ya had artsmazing race for RH day...

must say, its a PAINT-FUL experience-.-"

IT BROUGHT COLOURS TO MY LIFE...-.-"!!!!!

you wun understand,

nobody would...

everyonealways thinks bout themselves...

maybe i do too...

bt dun i deserve SOMETHING?

anything...

yes i hurt u,

but wad more can i do..

i tell u,

NOTHING...

Just giv me wad i want,

u noe wad it is..

ur <3

I WISH I KNEW...

2009-07-18T23:05:00.001+08:00

BAH. HAVNT BLOGGED IN YEARS. lol. Get kinda bored wf shit and wad nt... so tired and weak. BAKA. Fk life la.. Ahh well... bear wif it.

DUNNO

DUN CARE

DUN BOTHER

Do wad u want to...

cos i dun giv fk.

Hmm...

2009-06-26T17:40:00.002+08:00

HEY YO.

Havnt posted since last ice age LOL.

short and simple. just finished NP camp.

Summary... err. its was hard...

gt tortured at 4am by CI...

I lead PT for first two days...

second day screw up... and ya...

one last thing. IM PTI BABY!!!!!

Wanted PTI head bt WENCAI gt it...

asshole sia... if i nvr screw up 2nd day i get alr la...

BAKA... so ya, watched transformers after camp and my whole body aching...

and i gt a sore on my left foot.

YEah dats all.

DONE.

Happy 13th bi..

muax...

Something different...

2009-06-14T21:47:00.003+08:00

Just came bak from holiday!

IT WAS A BLAST!

Heh. Woot.

FInally going out wif homiez tmr.

hopefully ah.

Dunno wads wrong..

Dunno why i feel so different..

Its like a part of me has died,

and i dun care...

Baka!

2009-06-10T21:01:00.002+08:00

YOOOOOO. AT JOHOR RITE NW :D

MISSING EVERYONE! (except you)

So ya.... changed hotel multiple times today OOO...

nothing much.

Ok.

BUH BYE :D

Is there a difference if im there or not?

wait dun answer,

u dun nid to...

i alr noe the answer.

No.

Goodbye 4 nw...

2009-06-09T20:28:00.003+08:00

Hey ppl,

me leaving 4 malaysia tmr till friday...

dunno who wil miss me la...

Err, went 4 np meeting at sch on monda,

cool la, me and shaun campfire MC *WOOTS*

SO yeah... err, tmr supposedly have np,

but since i going holiday AND my uniform cnt fit,

i tink they are valid reasons...

( sooooooo not valid resons)

Err... ok...

See ya ppl, catch ya'll when i get back :D

MISS ME !!!!!

one last kiss goodbye...

:DDDDD

2009-06-05T21:18:00.005+08:00

SPECIAL THANKS TO THOSE WHO WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY:

IN ORDER AH BABE!!! :

1. SUFINASUHA :}

2.BENEDICT XD

3. XIAO TIAN :]

4. NIKHIL? O.O

5.JOYCELYN [:

6.MARISSA :D

7.MAMA :D

8. PAPA :D

9. SHAUN XD

10. JOAQUIN XD

11.MASYITAH :D

12. SHENG CHIEH XD

13.NEHEMIAH :)

14. DELBERT XP

15. VEENA ^^

16.HAZIQ :O

17. AMIRA C:

18.JIN ZHUANG ~_~

19. JAY EXX :B

20. HAKIM :F

21. YAN HAN :E

22. ZUL :$

23. IVAN *ckp*

24. MARCUS!!!! XD (nvr recieve msg at midnight-.-)

25.CHRIS!!! ^^

26. JANNELLE :Q (she gt say earlier but nvr see... so sorry)

I noe, theres more than 20, but at least they say rite?

THX EVERYONE :D

Thanks everybody :D

2009-06-05T21:07:00.001+08:00

FIRST TWENTY WHO MENTION ME

HAPPY BDAY

WILL BE MENTIONED ON MY LIST! 2 SPOTS LEFT!

A great day...

2009-06-05T20:40:00.002+08:00

Wow...

havnt had a day like dis in soo long. LOL.

Dunno why... Kk, heres the situtation jus nw.

Err... I had to go malay, but had NP stuff at ChungCheng....

figured np more impt so i went la...

Err, dun regret going man...

When reach there, HO ask why i never wear uniform...

then i say my boot wrong size, which was true la.

So me and Shaun are the onli two who nvr wear la.

TYPICAL PEAR PAIR! Like fated la-.-

WTH! -.-"""""

So ya, ok la... had some drill training, MYI to be specific...

then wentto pray on second floor wif other np mates frm other schs also...

then had teambuilding games, then went home la...

pretty cool, met new ppl and friends...

and saw Farhan-.-"(x1000)

Err.. best part was met wif dis REALLY AWESOME GUY LA.

His name is Natasrul!

Cool sia he... Funny part he like dis gal frm cora la...

so he want help on hw to get her number...

AND HE IS SUFI'S COUSIN BODOH!!!

AHAHAHAHA! FUNNY SIOL!

Dunno why... So ya...

He ceritakan his relations wif sufi la... long story, lazy tell...

so funny part was when he wanna noe her name la...

so i ask him to ask the fren. Lol.

Natas: Eh wads ur other friends name ah?

The short one wif the short hair?

Friend: Natasha..

Natas: Nearky same as mine sia!!

Mardhi: Ouh... sorry ah Natas... wrong person... sorry ah

Natas: There! I told you!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHÃ!!!!

So ya, end of the day,

he ask me help him get the number la...

but he backed out... Haiz...

Then going home wif Shaunny, he sms me...

he say get the number.... adn the gal sort of like him too la...

POWER MN BRO! ROCK ON!

Ahahahahaha!

Wad a great day...

watched Night At the museum two yesterday!

FUNNIEST SHOW EVA!!!!

K bye.

i still dunno hw dis will end up..

just live,

and ill try smile..

plz,

do the same...

A day of joy :D

2009-06-04T00:22:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

THANK U EVERYONE WHO STAYED UP TO WISH ME!!!! WILL BE SPECIALLY MENTIONED WHEN BIRTHDAY ENDS,

THE ORDER OF WHO WISH ME! THANK U!

MUAX! -.-

Everything goes...

2009-06-03T22:42:00.002+08:00

hey yo... still trying to finish fallout 3.

BDAY IN ONEHOUR!!! WOOTS!!!!

SO yeah... thx for those who wish me in advance.

BENNY LOST HIS PHONE SO IF U FIND IT, PLZ TELL ME COS U CANT TELL HIM!

Err.. DO NOT ASK HIM HW IT GOT LOST OR ANY OTHER SHITTY DETAILS!

COS HE LAZY EXPLAIN!

HELP TO SAVE A LIFE!

Thank you...

Err... gotta do chem.

BUH BYE!

M.u.a.x

Different...in a good way.

2009-06-01T19:28:00.002+08:00

WAZZUP EVERYONE[:

Today was pretty cool,

Shaun came over while waiting for his guitar lesson at plaza.

So yeah, we gamed and talked. Played gears of war 2.

He was quite good, fast adaptor. haha.

then he tried spiderman b4 we started playing guitar...

he good siol. awesome man!

You as good as my uncle bob down at texas *ckp*

Lols... Uhh... got Fallout 3. HARD SIOL THE GAME.

But pro like me can play la... although i die alot...

hard to cope la, easy to get lost and quite a horror game too.

Onli pros like me can play la *ckp* (again)

Uhh... dats all, bday coming up...

ppl, get me present la! Plz!

I like presents... HOHO!

pretty much it, oh ya my bday 4th June ah...

Buhbye XP

I dunno where dis is going..

i dunno how it will end up...

all i noe is...

i rather not noe..

I can take the sorrow...

2009-05-29T19:17:00.003+08:00

Hey everyone!

HOLIDAYS HAVE STARTED!!!

And im soooo bored-.- hate holidays la...

nothing to do but game, eat, sleep, game, tv, eat, sleep and game-.-

HATE IT.

Ah well, last day of sch was okay la... gt bazaar...

dunno hw to comment.

Was bored but nt SUPER bored,

Got my hair sprayed... Uhh... Me class sell cookies.

UHH!!

Wanted to go 3b haunted house but no time, but got time for 3d la...

funny siol.

Enter the hauntd house was walking and looking for joaquin...

who was suppose to be the hanged man...

He shocked me..

WOULD HAVE BEEN SCRAED if nikhil did not throw a teddy bear at my face

which HIT MY FRIGGING EYE AND BLURRED IT.

Well i was screaming bt continued qalking la...

Ppl under table try to scare me by grabbing my legs...

They failed and i tripped over them instead.

Last part gt someone extend her hand.. so i shook it.. then got some green starch on it.

EWW. like slime siol.

I screamed "WAT THE HELL IS DIS? MUCUS?!"

Ppl laughed and continued putting mucus all over me.

URGH! SICK!

Ahh well.. went for ptm today...

err okay la review, gt improvement, though my % below 60 la...

L1r5 is 24 *ckp*

Err... so yeah, feel free to bother me during holidays,

cos im seriously bored and finally gt me fone bak.

Dats all for now.

(p.s. BORED)

i miss you...

always do...

To be someone i cant...

2009-05-27T21:30:00.002+08:00

Hey everybody!!!

So yeah... sch was okay la... quite boring..

ups and downs... investiture was cool.

Aircon!!

COOL LA!!! GET IT?!!! AHAHAHAHAH!!!!

forget it-.-.

Other than dat, tmr bazaar, so many classes setting up...

i help classes 3b and 3d.

They tink i spy siol... wth...

So yeah, went home very late, scared kena scolded but nvr...

hahaha. Awesome la.

Today was cool, maybe things are starting to look up...

OMG!!! THINGS ARE LOOKING UP!!! EVERYTHINGS ALIVE!!! AHHH!!!!

(p.s. Im sorry Danny the II, i did not mean to lose or kill u,

u will forever be etched in my heart...

but nw begins the legacy of danny the III!!!!)

<333

So close...

2009-05-26T19:01:00.002+08:00

Heh. Had Davinci Science Challenge thingy after school today.... some stupid malay p5 was damn disrespectful la.... Walao, ask me shut up... then curse me malay stuff think i indian... i understand BODOH! Haha... so yeah, homed wif shaun... sch can tahan la... Heh..

Why do u do dis to me...

Why do u do dis so easily....

You make it hard to smile becos,

u make it hard to breathe...

why do u do dis to me....

If u dun care, why should i,

all that i do,

is make u cry,

those tears on ur cheeks,

the pain in ur eyes,

all dis shit makes me wanna die..

so yeah ive done wrong,

ill go right now,

i have failed u,

went bak on my vow,

but plz understand,

i didnt meant to,

throw ur love away and said we were through...

GOING BONKERS!

2009-05-25T21:08:00.002+08:00

Ok..

i tink im crazy... seriously dunno why.

TODAY WAS A GRAPE DAY!

I mean grate..i mean gate... i mean great!

Yeah lets stick wif dat.

So ya... quite cool la, minus the lessons...

err dunno why i feel different today...

its like something died in me, and just gt reobrned...

Bah, bet dis last a while onli... I the kind dun stay happy for long...

i tink WAAAAAYYYYY too much...

KAW PEH AH!

BAKA!

Well, today i was reaalllyy happy though.

Reali wanna noe why la...

so yeah, homed if shaun and met jannah and zul and hajar at station....

lawls.

err...

Bye.

Theres just something about you...

dt makes me feel...

right(:

Maybe there will be forever...

2009-05-23T18:20:00.002+08:00

HEY YO!!!

Wanted to go out today but cnt...

I THANK DELBERT SO MUCH FOR ALL THE EFFORT[:

sorry i cnt make it D:

Yesterday i went NP and got coporal.

Took over sec2 squad who apparently had no respect

for my not-meant-to-be-respected face-.-"

WORST PART OF ALL...

while marcing bak after taking rank,

i forgot hw to march and marched like an idiot! -.-""""

Whole sec 3 laugh siol.

Ah well, went to eat after dat and went home...

awesome day :DDD

I feel great today... Hahas.

Most shld noe why *ckp*

I want my fone bak D:

Oh ya thx me brothers :D

A year at last,

it seemed so long,

but now i noe,

its wif u i belong...

The answer

2009-05-21T21:09:00.001+08:00

You never understand do you?

Its okay,

i dun nid a answer,

i alr noe...

....

2009-05-20T20:20:00.001+08:00

So close...

One purpose..

2009-05-18T20:22:00.003+08:00

WOOOOOTS!

Went out wif sooo many ppl today.

Lazy to mention. Kk. Watched uninvited.

THE SHOW DAMN CONFUSING LA.

Ill give u a summary of the show, but dat would just be spoiling the movie right?

Sorry people.

Damn funny la in the theatre....

The ppl behind us were like so funny and noisy...

Got one part the fren ask...

"Whose dat lady?"

And then the fren answer "Monalisa"

WE ALL LAUGHING LIKE SHIT.

Den i keep screaming for no reason...

Haiz... Great times...

kay, great day...

loved it.

Tmr results.

YAHOOO!!!

You promise? (:

ROFLMFAOZOMGOSH!

2009-05-18T10:35:00.002+08:00

Wazzup peepal...

Err havnt posted in a LONG while... Lol.

Err... too many things happening these days, hard to keep track...

I just cant stand it.... One thing, ADAM ROCK died... Haiz.. Poor guy.

Me and my homiez loved him so much... and he loved us too.

And to think it was one of us who killed him...

I wun mention his name...

*cough*SHAUN*cough*

Yeah... So you know who kicked Adam on to the road filled wif rapid cars and we screamed at him to save Adam.

He said "Too many cars" But the look in his eyes. WOW.

He wanted Adam to die... Cos he was jealous of him OBVIOUSLY.

When Adam got CRUSHED by a huge lorry...

we all screamed except SHAUN who was happily celebrating....

We managed to salvage some fragments of Adams dead pieces

and brought them to Video world where we held a ritual

to pray dat Adam ends up n rock heaven...

filled wif diamonds and granite...

Everyone took part... and we outcasted Shaun...

But seeing he felt guilty, we forgave him. Provied he get us a new ROCK.

Rest in pieces my good friend... Well other tahn dat, Exams are OVER.

So yeah went out on Friday.

Caught Xmen AGAIN cos Marcus promised and alternate ending to teh one i watched.

Thanks alot man. Dat was $8!! -.-""""

Err, thursday, we relived our childhood dreams at the communtiy club there near our sch... played Basketball,

cheered when Joaquin finally scored,

Ice and water.... Haiz... Me frenz OWN.

Heh... So yeah... great week...

Thx for stopping bye... See ya!

well technically i cant see ya cos im in my house right now but...

Ahh forget it-.-"

Then,

now,

always...

Wad a smile...

2009-05-12T18:59:00.002+08:00

Wazzup guys and galzz.. So had Amath today.

Ppl say easy... BUT SO HARD FOR ME D:

Overconfidence luhh... god dammit.

Ahh heck.. Exam nearly over... Phew. :b

So yeah... yesterday went out to study wif shaun at white sands

cos he dowan slack at her home alone...

At first me parents want him come over cos they dowan me go out...

but in the end they let la... Wth. So yeah study wif him...

Blablabla, met some ppl at popular... Yeah... got a haircut...

they wash my hair twice o.0

Pretty much it. So today after sch went to magic wok, eat...

WASTE MONEY, and made hell lot of noise.

Usual la me bradders xP... Cant ask for better frenz...

Then at interchange saw some ppl and got slapped -.-

TWICE.. DD:

Yeah dats all...

and OW!!!!

(p.s. Im black *ckp*)

Im sorry for repeating mistakes...

i noe u cant keep forgiving,

so dun,

but no matter wad,

things will always be the same.

Lost...

2009-05-08T19:33:00.004+08:00

Sup People... Err geog was pretty cool. Tink can do well. So slacked after sch was real long wif tons of ppl.. Err Shaun, Benny, Joaquin, Joycelyn, Sufinasuha, Marcus (for a while), Nikhil, TAN WEI (Benny's twin o.o) .. Truth and dared till we got ored and then went prayers. Went to parkway. Met up wif SC and Phillip then went home... So yeah, dis day can tahan la... Oh ya, one more thing, at the interchange, me and shaun performed dis awesome duet... random music, i sung, he made the music... quite cool la... we got addicted and could not stop-.-
To tink all dis time,
i thought u were okay,
but u were not,
so yeah, Im sorry,
everyday, every moment,
i will be sorry,
cos everything i do,
i will always hurt those i care for most,
You dun have to forgive me,
you dun,
and by all means,
do wad u must.
And ill do wad i must.

Screws were made for screwing people!

2009-05-06T19:45:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo!

Im back peepal!

SO yeah, had Amaths and Physics today...

think screwed both but can barely pass la.

Errr... damn WASTED siol... calculate wrongly 4 first question when it was so easy,

now getwrong.

BASKET(adding 'ball' is optional)!

Err... Physics, i was damn sleepy la, so ya, screwed it...

Err... Slacked after school, ate ice cream, went home n had 3 HOURS OF TUITION! WOOHOOO!!

Me brain hurts, i think way too much...

Soya, today was cool... would rate it 6/10....

Feeling weird rite now...

Well, dats all ppl, now go away,

i want eat my chocolate pudding..

And if i died right now,

it will never be the same...

Do something right...

2009-05-02T15:57:00.002+08:00

MYE next week.

Heh.

So yeah. Watched Xmen yesterday. Pretty cool.

Err.. Yea, mugging right now.

Peace out.

To all those ive hurt or angered,

im sorry,

but i didnt mean to.

God Dammit Mardhi,

Do something right,

just once,

do one right thing,

without screwing someone out...

2009-04-30T19:53:00.005+08:00

Err... Chris ask me do dis?

So yeah:

1: Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?

neck XP *ckp*

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?

You dun wanna noe... seriously o.O

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?

How would i know? I so famous... everyone want photo wif me...

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?

uhh... Maybe... My arm malfunctioning and my nose jammed alr...

5: Would you ever donate blood?

No! Its my blood... Back off!

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

Yeah... guess so?

7: Do you want someone dead?

Yes... Dave the Barbarian...

8:What does your last text message say?

"HOHOHEHEHUHU!!!" to Benedict

9:What are you thinking of right now?

An answer to dis question...

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?

Most definitely.

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?

not so sure... I was ASLEEP?

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?

well, judging by the fact it says 'LANGKAWI' i'll guess i buy frm England...

13: Is someone on your mind right now?

Yes im thinking of someone... but TECHNICALLY, nobody is on my mind...

i mean like if they were actuali sitting on it...

it would be squashed right?

14: Who was the last person to text you?

Got la someone... KAYPOH FOR WAD SIOL!

8 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ

1. ME

2. Shaunny

3 Jay Ell

4.Jay EX

5. Hakim

6.Marcus

7. Veena

8.Xiao Tian

15: Who is 2 having a relationship with?

SERIOUSLY not sure... Real confused i guess O.O

16: Is 3 a male or a female?

Female... for all I noe...

17: If 7 and 1 get together will that be a good thing?

Woah woah... PLEASE dun ask lol... But anyone end up wif me DAMN lucky lah [:

18: What is Number 3 studying about?

Ask me stupid questions which i obviously dunno -.-"

19: Is Number 4 single?

Err... Dun think so... Or are you?

20: Say something about Number 2.

Best guy ever! Fun, brotherly, AWESOME.

21: What do you think about Number 5 and 6 being together?

Err... would be REAL interesting...

Now till eternity...

2009-04-23T21:44:00.003+08:00

ASSALAMUALAIKUM!!!!

hahaha! Good mood today ppl...

though i had to stand for 2 and a half hours

in total during sch for not finsihing hwk... -.-"""""""

Note to self:

DO HOMEWORK!!!! OR U WUN EVEN NOE HOW TO SPLEL PROPERLY! Hahahaahaahahahahaha!

great day la... came late, detention wif me brothers...

They werent late...

But funny story why they kena detention...

Here it goes...

after recess, i was holding chocolate milk and drinking it front of OM while heading bak to class... He saw me drinking den say "EH BOY! DUn u try to bluff me! You drink in canteen!"

(I WAS ROGHT IN FRONT OF HIM! WAD WAS THERE TO BLUFF?!)

SO yeah, drank, then me homies( shaun and benny)

wanted tol smuggle food (Sc was dere too but he nvr smuggle)

So yeah... we were told to go frm the bak of the canteen by a sec 4 boy and his fren la...

SO we sneak there...

Uncle CHEN saw us and was waving us to go...

Thinking, he hated the OM, we trusted him and moved quickly,

BUT he BACKSTABBED US! He scream dat we were smuggling to the OM!!!!

Then i was alr planning to say i was the onli one who smuggle so the rest nvr kena...

BUT BENNY DUNNO HOW TO KEEP FOOD THEN HIS FOOD DROP FROM POCKET!!! WTH!!!!

So lol the OM saw and walk dramatically towards us...

We walk fas and finsih our food on the way bak to class....

Benny alr throw away his food... heh..

thought the OM gave up but apparentkly the sec 4 boy who helped us

BACKSTABBED US TOO,

and told the OM where we went...

OM went to my class, found me and demanded names so i gave shaun and benny one la....

So yeah, Shaun and Benny told Ms Khairul dat they turn themselves in cos they felt guilty when actuali i turn them in one.

LOL!

So we clean the classes, damn fun when do wif me home boyz siol...

Positive side was, we got quality time, and not to mention

FREE STATIONARY!

Found a set square, ruler, two pens and two erasers. Hell yeah!

So overall, awesome day la... after detention,

went home wif me union, officially decided to bring DELBERT AND JOWIE IN!!!! CONGRATZZZ!

Went around looking for present after sch...

then went home...

AWESOME DAY!!!!

YEAH BABY!

Thanks for staying till we reached eleven,

thank you my angel, my only heaven....

I may not be the one you deserve,

but no matter wad, youll always have my love...

Powerless i stand...

2009-04-22T21:11:00.002+08:00

So sorry i never post for very long ah.

Very the busy leh... Dammit, onli 15 for Amaths! SO LOW! BLOODY HELL!!!!!!!!

Got hardest question correct but the easy ones wrong... careless and wad not... ARGH!

Alot of shyt happened over last few days...

major throat infection, i got pic but lazy upload... Sorry babe. LOL.

So yeah, random shit.. good and bad... Doing okay la basically...

Besides the scales and bumps at the back of my freaking throat vthat makes me scream everytime i swallow! Lol... notice me and me boys got union now.

Always go home together. Cool sia... Ranging frm 8 to 12 ppl everytime. COOL SIA.

Other than dat pretty normal. Screwed geog test. HAHAHA!

Dats all brothers and sisters.

And i finally LOVE MY CLASS! 3c RULES! Haahaha!

(P.s I hate you too )

You know why everyone left you?

You know why you hate me?

Because you can never be as lucky as me,

Yes, Be jealous,

Cos ur life will always suck.

And you will never be happy,

I PRAY YOU DUN.

Dun test my patience..

Thank you for everything,

thank you so much,

And yes,

I always will...

Sorry for everything,

but it will always be you,

only u..

Will you come back?

2009-04-18T08:23:00.002+08:00

I dunno wad to do.

I dunno wad to say.

Cos all i noe,

you will be okay.

So if i left,

and promised not to return,

would u want me to,

or u just wun listen?

Im sorry for all the things i have done to you,

ur willing to throw away all dat weve been through?

Why do u do dis,

hurt me to the core,

have u forgetten,

wad ur loving for?

Its your choice...

2009-04-17T20:19:00.002+08:00

HEY PEAPAL!!!!

Great day today guys.... So yeah, started off awesome,

though my throat hurts like chicken wing!

Lol... Err... SO yeah, had lessons... sch ended at 11.40!

Wooohooo...for other people D:

I had SS and History test... ZOMG! I DO ANYHOW. obviously -.-"

Err... then slack at sch b4 going mosque to pray la...

Then took bus to bedok stadium... Sports day wad o.o

Err... went there and waited for me bros to come... So met up wif me homz.

Cool siol. Damn big union. Heh.

Ya then mark attendance, then play wif ribbon gave to us...

All of us became Davinci. LOL. Ya, so sat together, cheered and wad not.

Hell lot of fun cos all me homiez there.

So we got bored, walked around, drank milo (i drank 8 cups)

Err, walk to other side, met up wif red cross and cheered for the runners there.

Then went back, and cheered.

Apparently i became the person to hold the letter 'N' in the DaviNci's cheer... Lol...

Err, saw The other houses's cheers la...

Einstein sucked...

Err, Tagore was damn cute (see Adam and Rifat),

ours was okay...

But Rutherford owned man!

Like wow... Shafiq can breakdance and Bayar hip hop dance!

AWESOME MAN!

So yeah, Davinci won overall house AGAIN.

No surprise there.... Hehe.

After sports day, Me, Shaun, Wencai, TASHA, JX and SC exercised man...

Ran around the track twice...

Err, pull ups and wad not, then went home...

Slack so long nvr see time -.-

Damn late siol... haha, all for today.

Kay,

BIEBIE!!!!

How im gonna hate to see you go,

but i made it possible i know,

how im gonna hate to see u go,

but u will.... oh you will...

More alone...

2009-04-14T23:17:00.001+08:00

Lying all alone... Wishing you would call... The pain within my thoughts, has broken all my bones.... You gave it all up.... You threw it all away... Theres nothing i can do....

Good to know dat ur okay...

2009-04-12T21:19:00.002+08:00

Hey everybody!!!!

Feeling great today! WOOHOO!!!

No troubles, no nothing...

so woke up early today cos got tuition....

Tuition was real beneficial, cos go through everything for tmr's test!

So yeah, Insyaallah i will do well tmr... Pray i do :/

Other than dat, gamed tons today.

Like 8 hrs i tink....

Lol, finish resident evil 5 again and then went to the com to play some more. HEH!

I wanna slap Tom Cruise... Dunno why. o.o

Apparently Shaun and Benny loves the song JAI HO!

I must agree... he video owns, not just the gals but the cool MAN!!!

WOOHOOO!!! SO overall nuthin much happened today...

Quite normal i guess...

Me twisting Joaquin's third nipple,

flew to Alaska and ate beef Jerkey there,

blew up the world trade centre and blamed Osama,

ate,

farted-.-",

and vomited...

So yeah, the usual i guess...

Well dats all...

Really miss Robert Melville right now...

saw a couple of ants biting me dads buttock today,

and reminded me on how Robert used to bite my butt...

Haiz... Miss him lyk shyt...

Robert!

WHY DID Y HAV TO GO?!!!

I just hope ur in a better place now...

Buhbye every1!!!

I dunno how long,

our love may last,

but i will treasure wad little time there is left...

cos i know someday,

someone will come,

and i will have

to give you up...

So for now,

i shall smile,

cos the world is still bright,

cos when she leaves,

comes the endless night,

and as the light fades,

so does our love,

so does my smile...

Lets see if its true...

2009-04-11T20:44:00.002+08:00

HeY EvErYoNe!!!!

Today was pretty cool...

Err... gamed... Revised and did TUITION homework... o.o

Ya... Then went beach wif family,

me sis and bro and DAD rollerbladed...

I thought me sis and dad how to *ckp*

Ya... Me and my mum rode bike together... T

he bike was REAL SLOW. (hinting to mom something)

Lol.. So ya, nothing much...

yesterday watch fast and furious, AWESOME show...

Love cars, i want one. A yellow one... Mmm...

So yeah, praying me dad get promotion so get raise in allowance ;D

Missing ppl rite now... Haiz. Amaths test next week.

ROFLMAFAOZOMGOSH!

hopefully can do la... noticed how funny shaun and jonathan kwok are...

and how indian rojak can be used as a source of SO many jokes..

HAAHAHAHAHA!

Kay im good.

Buhbyeee.

(I wonder if being a girl will be cool O.O)

I guess i should consider myself lucky eh?

A guy as worthless as me getting love from one such as urself...

So yeah, ill take dis pain,

cos if u dun care,

why shuld I?

I beg you...

2009-04-07T22:07:00.003+08:00

Hey guys....

sorry for last few days... not doing so good lately.

Well, i tink ive brightened up abit (if dats pssible looking at my skin-.-)

Err... had math tuition yesterday!

SO BENEFICIAL! AND MY TUTOR KNOWS MISS CHEN! AHAHAHAHAA! -.-"

So yeah.... had physics test today,

hopefully dun flunk....

Lemme see...

OH YA!

CONGRATS BAND FOR GETTING GOLD!!!!

WOOOOT!

(you guys would hav sucked without my support FYI)

Err...

So yeah... Pretty much it. And damn u darren for beating me in 2.4...

Son a DARRENS DAD!a

Or are you? o.O So yeah...

Sorry ppl, promise longer,

happier posts soon...

Take care...

I would rather die,

then to see my baby cry,

and dats the reason why,

i have to say goodbye...

(I miss you, I need you, Please..)

Why do i bother?

2009-04-05T18:12:00.000+08:00

Is it worth it?

Lying all alone...

2009-04-04T13:11:00.002+08:00

So cold...

A world so cold...

2009-04-03T21:11:00.003+08:00

Woke up,

sch,

prayers,

promo test,

PTM,

home,

blog.

Kay, Bye.

I have to go now.

Im sorry.

You will be okay.

Im leaving...

Leave it all behind...

2009-04-02T19:30:00.002+08:00

First and foremost, remember,

'Wif curls come Mardhi,

Wif Mardhi comes curls!'

(phrase courtesy of JingXi!!!! :P)

Heh, today was normal...

realized some shit... learned some too...

halfway finished amaths homework... NOOO!!!! D:

Err... Did presentation to class for emaths.... Quite cool....

My research owns.

Err... so yeah.

Went LAN after sch...

Left4Dead-ed wif Shaun, Joaquin and Nikhil... pretty kewl.

Owned to certain level. Heh.

So yeah, gamed to 5++ then went home wif Shaun and the rest.

Went home, then i decided to blog....

So now im blogging... Heh.

Sorry guys, kind of down today.

Something happened, i rather not talk bout it.

tmr is ptm and promo.

Woohoo.

Gotta go nw.

Sorry again ppl.

try be in happier mood next time.

Oh ya and please tell me whether i should rebond my hair.

Would love ur opinions.

Please and thank u(:

And my hope begins to fade...

As i see u drift further,

as i walk dis lonely path,

and you walk the other.

Im tired of missing you,

cos u werent there for me,

I know u always wanted dis,

well now baby, ur free...

Take it back...

2009-04-01T22:24:00.002+08:00

Wazzup people!

Now i told many ppl dis weirdest dream but those who never heard it...

I shall tell u all now... Last night i dreamt, i was at sch i tink...

i was proposing to JOAQUIN wif the ring i bought...

He SAID YES!

WTH!

And the inner part of the ring said *made in China* -.-"

I KNOW! SO WEIRD!

I REALLY DREAMT DAT!

kk... so if im right, on the wedding, day, Joaquin was wearing a white wedding gown

and i was wearing a tux... I LOOKED GOOD!

But joaquin... URGH!

No offence man, but ur body does not look good in a gown. YUCK!

Dats not all, BENEDICT was playing the frigging piano like a pro

and jovan was the ring bearer...

Well, SOMEONE was married to anotehr person and dat got me real mad... D:

Well, another DISGUSTING part was SHAUN was steading wif ZULHAQQIM!

WTH! I KNOW!

so, the guy who pronounces ppl was like " You may now kiss the bride"

Joaquin tiptoed... (i was taller in the dream)

AND THANK GOODNESS!

I WOKE UP! PHEW!

Just before he was about to plant a wet one on me.

EWWW... Well other than dat pretty normal la....

Played concentration during malay lesson and trivia cos teacher nvr come...

Ashiq took a video..

found out no nid go physics remedial cos i smart enuf :D

Played more concentration wif me homiez and other plas after sch...

heart aches abit... Lol.

Went back home wif shaun, jl and jx mainly....

Benny, SC and Jowie went parkway if im right. o.o

So yeah. pretty cool day.

Now somebody rub my feet.

Please?

AWW COME ON!

Fine, ill get the monkey to do it...

I guess...

Im just not the only one anymore...

right?

Hoping once more... =D

2009-03-31T18:52:00.002+08:00

Salutations my fellow comrades in learning!

Its me again!

The Mardorable MARDHI!!!

haha...

Kaykay, so today was pretty cool...

i noticed over the past few days dat my form teacher,

mrs Lui always threaten me about PTM dis friday la...

assume she is gonna tell my parents bad points.

Also get insulted so often for my stupidity.

So i finally figured out its time to buck up(:

So yeah...

NOW,

I pay attention in class loads ((:

I do my homework (((:

Ask questions after lessons ((((:

And teacher compliment me (((((:

And thx to my slowly changing attitude, i got 18 out of 25 for physics!

YAY!

So high for me luhh.

Yay AGAIN!

Ahahah!

One more time?

OKAY!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYY!

Heh. Kk...

Now for bad things... Kk... err not gonna mention the emo ones.

So ill just mention dat I KEEP DIRTYING MY SHIRT NO MATTER WAD!

not just my shirt, no matter wad kena somehwere one. ice cream on shirt....

on shoe.

For example ah, shaun will hit benny who has ice cream or curry or something and dat food will just fly to me la.

Piss me off siol!

But i give up la...

So today was just shoe and front and back of shirt...

No big deal-.-" Lol...

Other than dat, the day was pretty normal.

Must improve studies.

For my future's sake. :D

And for Mr Noodles XP

You want ur life back,

so ill give back it to you..

But im keeping your heart...

And she left, just like that...

2009-03-28T12:14:00.002+08:00

WAZZUP PEOPLE!

*readers look up and bird shit falls on head*

Hahahaha! -.-"

kay, went to pastamania yesterday, pretty interesting, the food DAMN filling...

my stomach want explode siol... heh.

Wanted to catch a movie but too late luhh...

And everyone quite tired, especially me... you know, wif NP and wad not...

Still feel down bout me grades... Lol.

And feel so empty inside, like something left me.

Slowly drifting away... i wun save it dis time...

kay, dats all folks, cya in like err...

soon?

*baby i love you so,

dis you must know,

i love you..

from my head to my toe*

(p.s. I cant sing)

Say goodbye....

2009-03-26T18:57:00.001+08:00

First and foremost,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!!!!!!

YOUR THE BEST DADDY EVERRR!!!!

So usual today, went to sch, study, did my hwk AGAIN XP.

Err, slack after sch, bore pain, ate ice cream then homed wif shaun who broke his spec's

thingamagick...

Time to emo...

Kay, my grades are screwed up. Got lowest in class! Yay?

Got L1r5 27 and percentage 55%... Pro rite?

Hehe... So yeah...

again, and for the last time im sure, the day happened the same way, good, bad, then worse.

I have to change dat. I now it will change.

Truth is...

Life just sucks and it aint fair at all.

Everything i do and say, its still wrong...

I end up making those i love and care for most angry or sad...

Im sorry... Dis is why i ask you guys...

How in the world can u guys say dat i make u guys laugh and smile,

when i bring so much misery to others.

But worse part is, me... Mardhi, i can never be happy.

But i wun be selfish. Ill tink for others first. For those i love.

Cos they matter more than me. but no matter wad, someone will always get hurt.

And it will always be cos of me.

And no matter wad, Ill get hurt.

But im okay wif dat.

Cos its my pain, nobody elses. So yeah. Dat will make life better i guess(:

Everyone's sad these days. If its my fault anyone.

Im sorry. Its gonna be hard... but I must be happy today of all days.

For me beloved daddy(:

besides, if im sad, can always fall back on my homiezz

and family right?

Hehe.

Ok dudes and dudettes.

Cya.

So wanna be ya. :D

Love you all... well most of you at least...

Forget wad i said.

HATE YOU!!!!

Baby, just say goodbye,

ill be gone tmr,

baby just close ur eyes....

My heart can take the sorrow...

Baby just walk away,

you know i cant stay,

theres no easy way to say goodbye,

but im sorry,

goodbye...

Fighting through the storms.... to see the light dat shines beyond....

2009-03-25T20:45:00.002+08:00

YO! YO! YO!

EVERYBODY SAY YEAH!!!!

*silence*

*random guy throws can at mardhi's head and shouts: YOU STINK!*

-.-

welll,

AGAIN,

TODAY HAPPENED THE SAME WAY THE OTHER TWO DAYS BEFORE DIS!

WTH LA! Same concept everday!

First... i damn happy one.

Then become sadder cos something bad happen..

Then become even worse cos something worse happens.

Then emo whole day.... CANNOT TAHAN SIOL!

Hate dis... But today, end of the day okay luhh.

Me like... *ckp*

heh... lets see, other than dat today quite normal 4 me la...

ME and benny onli two shouting during house meeting!

WOOTS! HIGH 5 BENNY! Oh wait u cant reach?

AWW! SO SAD! Aha!!!! (sry ben :B)

Well... other than dat, shot photos of Joaquin in a bikini! -.-"

Jkjk... though he will look so hot! AhA!

AND AMAZINGLY FOR THE FIRST TIME,

I DID NOT GET SCOLDING FOR NOT FINISHING HWK! COS I ACTUALLY DID IT! WOOOOOOTS!

RElax, aint doomsday yet...

Well stayed back after sch and remixed songs... Ahehehe.

Those wif me just nw. Please dun spread. Thanks soooo much. Heh.

Kk, gotta wash my aunties toenails.... SHit.

Gonna be hard without a gas mask.

Welll wish me luck.

IM GOING IN!

I dunno why u do dis to me,

why u hurt me so much,

whether its on purpose or not.

Isnt the point of loving someone, to not hurt them?

and yet, they say, those who u hurt most are those u love most?

Well, either way,

Im sorry,

wonder if youll ever be for me...

Moving on...

2009-03-24T18:57:00.002+08:00

YO-YO!!!!

Its me again!

Ur favourite black, random, pimply, rude, bean squeezing guy!

Starts wif an M...

ends wif an ARDHI!

wad does it say?

Mefolorkhjubileeardhi!

Yup... Lol... Kk..

Today was ass usual, started off pretty kewl....

got sucky mid day.... and sucked the most on the way home...

Its like i must screw something up everyday wif someone...

Haiz... PENING BODOH! (means headache stupid)

well... things dat screwed up my day... err....

Physics remedial (Nazir was being an asswipe...Reali appreciate it[: )

Err... My phone is malfunctioning bad... the keypad can work but the buttons for navigation all dat cannot so my phone is useless rite now.. BAKA! -.-""""

Err... the aaths hwk i havnt finish and emaths too...

Ya, and some other shit i would rather not mention.

K. Must keep positive attitude! ist just not being happy the rest of my life right...

*looks to ground*

ARGH! LIFE SUCKS!

*screams up to sky*

*bird shit enters mouth*

AWW YUCK! needs salt....

*ckp*

Ok yo... so went home wif my best friend...

Chatted bout usual shit.... Ya so dats pretty much it...

Must improve studies.

It aint over till the fat lady sings...

AND MAN MS RAZIE CAN SING!!!! ROCK ON!!!!!

*headbangs randomly and hits wall*

Ok dats all everyone. Buhbye!!!!!!!

Wad are u still doing here? I said scram!

Oh so u wanna read the rest of dis post?

I see... kk... Read la while i spray sunblock into Vushna's eyes....

Walao... Go away la not funny... kay la...

Dun want leave ur problem.

Waste ur life reading dis post! SEE IF I CARE!

Mefolorkhjubileeardhi signing out!

PEACE OUT!

I cant take it anymore...

I must do dis.

For u.

For me.

Im sorry...

But please, for us,

move on...

cos if u can do it,

i can too...

Meant to be...

2009-03-23T21:28:00.003+08:00

Hey everyone(:

Mr Mardhi Marshal here! Nice to meet you! -.-

Kk.. Today had its ups and downs... not bad la.

Starting was great...

then mid day got insulted by teachers when they say im not fit to be in 3c cos im failing...

then i noticed how bad my studies were then became super depressed....

Bad mood whole day. Sorry to all ppl i scolded and cursed and Bob...

about ur mom, i did not mean to kill her...

She made me mad, and i had a rubber chicken in my hand...

And shaun got a present from Zul and Sufiii...

they got a present b4 me... Some kind of bestie i am... -.-

well, my present will be worth while. So ex some more. 100% u like.

YOU BETTER! MY MONEY SIOL!

Kk... Got maths remedial also... sucked like shit.... quite beneficial also luhh.

Heh. Went home, on the way,

me daddy called and ask me go tampines wif me mommy and him...

Lawls...

pretty cool la....

Dats all ya'all....

SHAUN! U OWE ME BIG TIME!

I cannot bear to see you go...

I cannot bear to see you wif another guy...

But most of all, i cant bear to see you sad...

I dunno if im able to make u smile...

If you say so,

Then hold on...

I hope we can last till forever...

Until then,

Happy 10th month my love....

Difficulties...

2009-03-22T21:10:00.003+08:00

Yo every BODY!!!! You guys rock!!!!

Yes... I love you all...

except for Eugene... YOU MAKE ME SICK! -.-

(no offence to all eugenes in the world :B)

Now, most important news first...

SPECIAL DEDICATION

A very Happy Birthday to my OLDEST and HOTTEST best friend...

SHAUN!!!!!

YES! Its the great shaun... Leader of our homies and loved by all....

Hey man, i get ya something tmr (no time la babe sorry)...

Bet ull get tons of presents, from gals alot (and someone unexpected) *ckp* Hahas.

Ur a great friend and brother and im proud to be ur MALE bestest friend. Hahas!

You pebble man!

Hope dis day was special for u bradder. Cant choose a better friend than you!

Well man, ive seen u grow for 11 years now...

from K1, with dat overly big smile...

to primary school when u were as big as i was...

To secondary school, where u became too hot for ur own good...

U are real caring, and willing to listen to all my complaints and yappings bout life...

And i know u realli wanna join NCC... well tink bout it man, at least ur still hot, and thx to u, NPCC actually has some face in TK.

Brother, thx for everything,

homiez for life!

(P.s. Im still better than you)

Today, i did Amaths, gamed, chatted on phone, game, bathe, game,

wasted electricity bill, game, fly to the moon but hit a cow on the way,

break dance wif Mrs Guna, gamed,

Belly dance wif MS Razie(She keep hitting me! YOWSA!)

shakes ass wif shunny, pole dance wif Darren Phua, his the pole btw*ckp*,

licked the floor clean off algae,

shaved queen elizebeths back hair,

picked obamas nose for him and pasted it on National Museum of New York,

Rapped on MTV and mocked Jay-Lo's overly huge ass

before getting punched in the spleen byAngelina Jolie,

who got beaten up by Jennifer Anniston and me and Brad Pitt

just watch and laugh while eating popcorn and hotdogs...

Mmmm...

(you want me go on? OF COURSE YOU DO)

At noon, i, cut my hair like Rihanna and beat up a hobo at Geylang,

cliff dived off Dantes Peak and met a melted dead grandmother next to an acid pool,

went to court for playing on a tennis court in courts,

counted how many leg hairs i have (i have so little "sobsob")

met up wif the click five and they invited me to join and call themselves click seven,

(i did not join cos they dunno how to count, dumb)

went to Nepal and met shaun there who told me dat when ppl call me funny,

was they meant was:

Mardhi is

Friendly

Unique

Nice

Nicer

Yoghurt

(thank you shaunny)

Woah, out of random juice. Gotta recharge... SO pretty much gamed the whole day when im suppose to homework dat i know i wun finsih in the first place... Heh...

Dats all Ppl, see ya later... Or will i?

Chances are close to zero if u live in another planet or alternate timeline and managed to find my blog through foerign advanced techonology...

So yea... See ya later!

(P.S. I LOVE SCRAMBLED EGGS! THEIR NOT JUST EGGS! THEIR MESSED UP EGGS!

I love you,

just wish u knew how much....

huh, i dunno either,

cos my love,

is infinite....

To have a heart, to have a soul...

2009-03-21T21:16:00.003+08:00

OMG!

HAvnt posted in ssooooooooo long... So many things happened while i have been away ppl.

Way too many to count.

Well, firstly, had NPCC CAMP!!!! HELL YEAH! -.-"

Why am i cheering?

Lol... Wrap up of events dat happened from tuesday to thursday:

TUESDAY: Reach school slightly late... Drills... Campcraft.... Lectures... WooT!

WEDNESDAY: Reach school on time, even MORE drills. Do rifle drills. I dunno, so i sucked-.- Yeah, had more lectures. Oh ya and PT(lead bu SC and Wen Cai!

THURSDAY: Reach school, PT (lead by Shao Kiat and SHAUNNY) Baton drills, took over squad and screwed up, but was hell fun....

Kk... I want either Sec2 or 1 IC or Games and sports....

Lol... Ppl tink im too playful):

So i tink i wun get good post... D:

Place place ur votes whether im too plaful or not

(tag it and i shall post on whether i am playful or not)

Ahh welll.... Overall, camp was okay la... though shaun still complains he still wanna join ncc. Btw... Ncc SEA OWNS! Haha...

Kay, Friday was interesting...

Went breakfast wif me family....

Then wnet to Kallang to meet up wif me HOMIEZZZZ and others!

(Shaun, Benny, Joaquin, Marcus, DELBERT, Suffii :P)

.... Havnt been wif them for sooo long. So we movied... watched Mall cop.

SUPER RETARDED SHOW! WOOTS!

Yea... So after movie went play at arcade.

WE PARAPARA-ED!

I ROCKED! BENNY ROCKED MORE!

BUT DELZ ROCKED US BOTH OUT OF OUR SOCKS!

should see us dance man....

I was like hip hop... Benny was stylish... and Delz was all smooth... SERIOUSLY!

So we got our names on the high score board... lol.

So many spots... Ya then we went to eat...

Kfc and the food court there. Well, ran out of cash LOL! T

hen we PARAPARA-ED SOME MORE! WOOOOOOTS!

I tink we can get addicted. HAH!

Well, it was late, so cabbed to kallang mrt before heading home.... Long but overly fun day. :D TODAY, went to east coast park wif family!

We cycled and rollerbladed.

Apparently, me daddy reali wanna learn how to rollarskate but none of us wanna teach him. sorry dad.

haha. Today rocked la.... Heh.

Well, long week, long life, long noodles, and long great wall of china... everything is long in life... except benedict, he is REAL short....

Lol. Welll, overall, i would not trade my family or friends wif anything,

except a chocalate donut wif sprinkles... :D

Wad?

Dun tell me you wun do it either!

Wait, u wun?

WELL WHO ASKED U?

If u had one wish,

wad would u wish for?

Would it still be the same one,

u told me,

when we were happy long ago?

As life goes on...

2009-03-15T21:31:00.003+08:00

Hmm... Feeling awkward today, mixed feelings...

Got happy, sad, RETARDED, mad, RETARDED and even more RETARDED!

Git NP camp... woops,

NP COURSE dis tuesday...

UHH! LAZY GO SIA!

But must make sure get good post...

If they dun giv me IC a screw them...

Like i screwed my broken table chair today.. Heh.

Well... Not sleeping at sch at least.. Dats a good thing.

But bad part is other CCAs get camps at school...

And Np doesnt... WTH.

Dis makes me feel so degraded. Should have joined NCC Land :/

Ahh well, too late now, two years late.

Well, Dats all folks...

Please feel free to visit the souvenir shop on ur way out. :D

Oh ya shaunny, HI!

Life will go on...

With or without you...

But my smile wun go on...

If ur not there to make me...

I miss you.

Always will

Forever ends...

2009-03-12T18:41:00.002+08:00

Hey yo...

Havnt posted in a while... Sorry yo.

Life is beginning to suck eh?

Apparently, sucks more for me than other ppl o.o

Im failing in studies like suuupppeerrrr bad.

And it sucks. My l1R5 is 28 and my L1R4 is 20... heh, i suck dammit.

Failed three subjects... I never seem to smile anymore...

I dunno why, cos it aint anybodys fault. I really wanna smile.

I really wanna be happy. I know happiness will come soon.

I know it will.

Shaunny, have faith bro. Dun ever give up man.

Kay, Bye ppl, thx for ur attention.

Can lend me ur smile?

I lost mine...

I'd hate to see you go...

But I'd hate to see you cry even more...

So i wun be selfish.

Ill try my best.

Where i belong...

2009-03-07T11:42:00.005+08:00

Guess whose back? No its not Nelson! ITS MARDHI! WOOOOT!!!! Everyone loves Mardhi... :D

Woah...very long four days at camp... but seemed so short to me! BEST CAMP EVVVVERRR!!!!!

seriously... I LOVED IT! Wish i could go back... Let me give you a summary of wad happened...

DAY 1

Daddy sent me to sch... Reached sch, met the others, apparently they all bring freakishly huge bags.. While i brought such a small one... I ROCK! Greeted many ppl, cos im so damn famous.... Ya then assemble, Camp Chief briefed us, gave us a fifteen minute break,

met our instructors, Shannon and Herman,

they OWN!

then we went on the buses to Kota la...

Sat at the back next to Raymond and talked to many ppl...

Adam tore a spare travel declaration form in front of Mrs Lui...

Her eyes popped open lol..

Reached customs,

Did the shit we had to do,

Then rode bus to kota luhh, fell asleep in the bus,

Reach there, it was raining! WOOT!

Got our room keys,

The room was ACTUALLY very nice...

But my room was smaller than the other ppl's rooms cos we onli got one bed....

Had to fit ten ppl in the room... WOW?

My room mates were

Hakim, Darren, Hidayat, Wen Xiang, Xavier, Jonathan, Kevin, Raymond, Clement...

Uhhuh, so went to have breakfast,

then Shannon said the COOLEST JOKE ON EARTH!!!

Here's how it goes:

Random guy: Hey shannon why you wearing booties?

Shannon: Because tonight will be the night dat i will fall for you...

ME AND ASHIQ WERE ALUGHING OUR BUTTS OFF!!!!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAA!

Kk, had breakfast, had some interesting ice breaker games...

related to balloons and wad not, popped them at instructors face...

Then had navigation challenge, had to use map to move around campsite area there,

had some teambuilding games, quite cool la...

then had dinner if i recall correctly,

then had briefing of wad we doing the following day,

which is KAYAKING! WOOTS!

Then had to do some jungle night rescue thing...

so fun luhh!

carry some fake-injured instructor to the campsite...

He complain like hell,

so we just satisfy him...

Ask for water the Hidayat sprayed water into his mouth then he choke-.-

So fun :D

He kept asking where his friend was...

Then i said he was at leprechaun land playing wif unicorns XP

ya then had debrief...

Went to sleep...

I slept on the bed...

And i dreamt of leprechauns fighting wif shannon...

DAY 2

Day two.. i was looking forward to...

Kay, teamed up wif raymond and Kevin for kayaking ;D

Ya so early in the morning after breakfast,

they teach us how to kayak and wad not...

So we were swinging our paddels in the air on solid ground...

And looked like some Chinese warrior academy-.-"

After dat took bus to Johor river!

YAY!

Reach there, assemble, they teach us again...

Then had lunch... Mmmm...

Really hot day...

Everyone was being fried alive...

We were to wait two hours,

i dunno why laaa....

Ya so me and Ashiq,

started making a rap for our class cheer which we had to do..

We made it the theme of Crank That by Soulja Boy,

RHYMING IS SOO FUN!

yeah so after two hours,

we were allowed to kayak...

me and kevin and raymond were not very good as none of us know hw to kayak...

Lol XD

So we kayaked, firstly can tahan la...

Then i got REAL tired...

My arms were dying...

i kept colliding wif other kayaks...

Especially Shaza's, think she got reali pissed o.o

So i got hit in the head twice, crushed three ppl's hands,

and collided bout 60 times...

OVERALL,

IT ROCKED!

We had to stand on the kayaks, sing songs and wad not...

bloody fun la,

i loved it...

Ya so kayaked for wad seemed like ages...

then went back to shore where we were debriefed,

put back teh kayak stufff,

then snap photos,

then went back to the campsite...

YAY! :D

had dinner, then campfire prep!

Me, Ashiq, Hakim thought them our cheer,

which owned,

thought them how to dance the Soulja Boy dance thing,

before teacher interrupt saying she would not accept the dance...

ARGH!

SHE WAS KILLING MY CHEER!

well, made some improvements...

AND IN THE END,

OUR CHEER TURNED OUT BETTER THEN EXPECTED!

Me and Ashiq were like:

"OUR BABY'S ALIVE!!!!"

DAY 3

Hell yeah...

felt pumped up on day 3,

dunno why...

Well, was gonna go to Pelapah waterfall dat day,

And i felt damn excited laaa...

Cos the briefing yesterday made it sound fun...

ahh, so had breakfast, gathered and we were offf...

YAY! We walked bout 2km to the entrance of the jungle to the waterfall there...

We cheered and sung on the way...

Everyone seemed happy :D

Yeah so reach the entrance,

we had lunch...

and entered the MUDDY waters to the place where the path started...

So fun enter the water cos ppl were paranoid over leeches sucking their BLOOD!

So we tracked up the freakishly long path, helped one another,

cheered some more...

me and Ashiq kept saying "why?" before singing Fall for You,

Lol... XP

Ya so we reach the first waterfall, snapped pics and splashed the DAMN cold water at each other, then tracked our way up the side of the waterfall to the second yet smaller smaller waterfall, but the pool down there can house the whole Section la...

Ya so we waited for the other grps to come up...

cos we were the first and talked about runescape and wad not...

Jared and some other guys were throwing rocks and sticks into the pool we were bout to enter...

Ashiq and i were saying on how he does not respect nature...

I was like "Later in the pool, he fall down, I laugh sia.... Alhamdullilah!"

And when it ws time... Just as I entered the pool,

SPLASH!

Jared FELL!

I was like "AMIN! AMIN!"

And Ashiq was suffocating from laughter...

RETRIBUTION!

So we sang sch song, cheered in the pool then trekked our way back...

helped each other again and never stppoed cheering...

Then another great joke popped up:

Me:"Eh Wen Xiang, Your shirt is red... WIF BLOOD!

and frm then on, everything me and Ashiq said was related to blood...

Lol... The whole day NEVER stop laughing sia...

My stomach, diaphragm all hurt...

Seriously sia... Was so annoyed cos could not stop...

yeah so when we walking bak the 2km route,

we were left far behind, so Shannon was like asking us to rush..

And we were singing CHECK YES JULIET chorus...

So cool la...

Then cheered all the way bak, sing sch song also...

reach bak, had dinner then went for CAMPFIRE!

YAY! I felt so hyper dat night,

like i first time take ecstasy!

Was dancing and screaming 'BLOOD!' randomly..

The campfire so cool la...

Not like last time..

Dis one got screen and cool music like club like dat...

Then every group perform during the fire...

One intructor could do belly wave... (which is SICK)

and another is so imba s he could do butterfly push up and hand stand push up...

WOW!

My class did better than expected during our cheer...

Could never be more proud!

GOOD JOB GUYS ON BEHALF OF ME AND MY CREW!

Yeah so lost my voice dat night due to severe screaming-.-

was real tired...

Reachy bunk,

straight away sleep..

Wad a long day...

DAY 4

Time to go home...

So we had breakfast...

Then packed our bags to go home...

Had some gathering before we went where they announced which class was best team...

OBVIOUSLY,

3c (my class) won!!!

I was somehow not surprised cos i felt we deserved it!

Welll.... Wif our medals, took pics and boarded the bus... Yipee!!!

On the bus, Shannon and Herman, who i felt were AWESOME insturctors,

blasted music using the mike...

They left Ashiq in charge of the music and i got jealous...

So after the Malaysian checkpoint...

I sat at the front wif Joshua,

next to Ashiq and Hakim...

Me and Ashiq set up our own radio show!!!

SO DAMN FUN LA!

I made a traffic report, talked bout oranges, told a great joke and many song dedications from

Herman, Shaza and shahirah, and Jiepin...

IT WAS AWESOME!

The bus ride was made fun thx to us XP

Reach sch...

Took more pics, sung our last cheer, thanked everyone for a great time... then headed home...

Overall, i felt our class bonded tremendously during the camp..

I actually love my class now...

I would like to thank our awesome instructors again for such a great time...

Shannon, YOU ROCK.

Herman, GOOD LUCK.

Thanks everyone... :D

You noe you cant lie,

so why do u do it?

Are u trying to hurt me,

for all dat i did?

I noe i deserve this,

this pain dat cuts to the soul,

But plz dun dis to me,

dun be so cold.

You noe im not needed,

i stab you like a knife,

so just get rid of me,

dis burden in ur life...

After the rain...

2009-03-02T20:44:00.002+08:00

GREEtiNgs!!!!

Today was actually okay, based on ur perspective luhh...

On the way to sch... was walking down haig road....

Lallalalala... And then, there in the middle of the road was a dead cat, its head,

YES, ONLI ITS HEAD,

squashed... can see its brain jucie, minced meat, eyeball and wad not.

BEYOND SICK LUHH!

Then i took a pic and walked away

(i am not a sadist, its a form of curiosity and evidence to show others)

... then walk some more... thought over alr rite...

then...

ANOTHER DEAD CAT!

Dis time the whole body was squashed, the intestines, stomach, guts were EVERYWHERE!

Yuck man... The were three crows eating up the corpse...

one was flinging wad looks like the cats small intestine around and threw it my direction... EWWW!

worse of all the cats were very young, judging by there small squashed body sizes,

or wads left of it la...

Not accurate my theory cos some of the guts could be stuck to the car's tires or something... Worse part of the day...

I GOT 16 OUT OF 40 FOR AMATH! WOOPTIDOOO!!!! -.-"""""

14 for geog...

BUT 16 for AMATH! BAH!

I need to concentrate more... dun wan to stay back dis year...

Haiz...

Tmr is cohort camp peeeepal!

Both wanna go and dun wan! so excited but so bored...

Me and my retarded and confused mind... 0.0

Ahh well... pray its gonna be fun.. Bet it would be! HELL YEAH! Miss me people...

Oh wait, of course you would...

IM MARDHI!!!!

AHAHAAHAHAHA!!!!!!

-.-

The thing dat keeps me going,

is a fact i alr noe,

dat after the endless rain,

then comes the rainbow...

When sorry just aint enough...

2009-03-01T22:47:00.002+08:00

Yo guys... slacked at home today... blablabla.

SIAN SIA! Thus i shall talk about a random subject :P

Today, i shall talk about ORANGE!

(suggested by someone)

Oranges! What a great word...

Pronounced as o-ran-jes

it can be noun or a verb..

It can be used as a symbol of respect and wad not when u give it to other ppl on chinese new year.

It is also a delicious sweet/sour treat for the world to enjoy.

Also, it can be used to describe objects which are the colour orange, which is a mixture of primary colours red and yellow,

thus forming the secondary colour, orange...

When used in the context: "I wanna eat an orange" , it is used in the form of a noun where someone would want to consume the subject which is a orange...

In the context " Nelsons bra is orange," it is used as a verb to describe the given subject which is the bra...

Thus, orange is an excellent and beautiful word and we should aprreciate dat it exists in our lives :D

Have a great day people.

Class dismissed. :)

What do you say when sorry aint enough?

Say: "I love you... "

A cold world...

2009-02-28T19:21:00.007+08:00

Hello everyone! SOMETHING HORRIBLE HAPPENED TODAY!

I LOST MY AFRO! NOOOOO!!!!!
Now my hair is all short and sharkfin-like again...

MY SEVENTIES LOOK! GONE!

ah well... everything has to go someday... haiz...

Well, life just keeps getting harder for me.

Got all sorts of problems, emotional, physical,economical,phsycological, social, defensical, and lastly other problems-lical....

Haiz... Insyallah i will get through these hard times,

Kk, went to eat, take my bros pic, cut my hair....

ya i tink dats it. o.o Oh ya, and i did i mention i cut my hair?

ITS SO SHORT! Some people ask me rebond... should i? o.O

i tink ill lose my mardhiness if i do..

The curly hair is my thing... U dig homie?

I WANNA EAT ICE CREAM CAKE! Lol...

You know wad sux the most?

To hurt someone,

even though im trying my best to protect you,

and getting hurt all the way.

Hurting urself for someone is okay,

getting hurt for me, is not,

keep ur promise,

and i shall keep mine...

Hide and Seek...

2009-02-27T21:02:00.001+08:00

YO PEOPLE! TODAY WAS A GREAT YET AWFULLY SHITTY DAY!

so many things happen at once... so difficult bodoh...

When i want one thing to happen, the other occurs...

Apparently, i was wrong about the "Everybody loves mardhi" theory

cos got some ppl who hate me one... Aiyo... Stress nye...

Went to marcus house today, had a lot of fun, played guitar, played hotel 626..

lol, i scream like a girl..

Speaking about girl... Congrats to a certain SOMEONE who got 32 out of 40 for amaths!

Yipee for you :D

Then took 15 to pasir ris wif me best friend, shaun...

lack in white sands for long time looking for chicken man.

I WANT HALO WARS DAMMIT!

Err... funniest part of the day!

Me and shaun met up wif sufi at interchange when going home... So funny larh..

We were all waiting for the bus to come...

Then we saw the scariest thing on earth! A GREEN LADY!

No she was not literally green. -.-" but she had long, grey hair, wore a GREEN tube,

carried a backpack... And a cat likes to roam around her there.

She stand away from the whole crowd and on the grass, kept looking at trees...

She turned around while stroking her hair, smiled... SHE TRIED TO ACT CUTE! WTH!

So scary la.. everyone was looking at her.... Wads scarier than a old, dark skinned lady wearing a green tube and no bra wif a backpack and throwing papers from her bag to a random cat and stroking her hair and trying to act cute and thus scaring the pants off me and my traumatized best friend....

LOL! SHOULD SEE HOW SCARED SHAUN WAS!

HE WAS COMPLAINING ABOUT THE GREEN LADY ALL THE WAY HOME! ME AND SUFIdat face... will haunt us forever... we can even nake a tv show bout dis... Like incredible tales... WERE LAUGHING OUR BUTTS OFF AT HIM!

AHAHAAHA!!!! We shall never forget the way she smiled...

The opening line for the show will be...

(shaun and me made dis up on the way home, while acting like cowards-.-") :

I know you roam around daily,

but watch where you have been,

for where u went there may be a lady,

who will always be wearing green...

I know ur trying ur best..

to keep me away from harm...

just give up...

im not worth ur time...

or your tears...

Im sorry...

All i can ever give u are two things,

my love, and pain...

If u want one, u must take the other....

Im sorry...

Everything i do is wrong? Right?

2009-02-26T23:04:00.002+08:00

Hey guys...

CT JUST ENDED! WOOOHOOO!!! PARTAYE!!!!

*dances like retard in middle of assembly plaza*

WOOOOT!!!!

*pulls down shaun's pants*

AHHAAHHA!

I nvr stop feeling weird one. I reali got mood swings bodoh...

I man like some times happy, some times sad...

CANNOT TAHAN SIUL.

Well, went to LAN after sch... tried of left 4 dead...

apparently, nikhil, sc and joaquin (all experienced gamers) were one team

and me and jowie and someone else was another team luhh...

(we three nubs, just started playing)

Then wanted to eat... called daddy, he say can..

called mummy, she say cannot-.-

so i went home alone... urgh! and slowly died out of starvation...

After coming bak from the dead...

I reached home, got scolded.. (my fault) and now im here posting bout me posting bout me posting....

Well, dats all, but main part is...

CT IS OVER! IM GONNA PON NP TMR!

AHAHAHAHA!

The pain i feel right now,

is not cos u loved him more,

but the fact dat u lied to me,

dats why my heart has tore...

Endless lies...

2009-02-25T23:36:00.005+08:00

Quoted from her blog:
I CHATTED WIF HIM JUZ NOW !!!
but its not fun luh.. he is so shy-.-"
c'mon la.. haiz..
n suddenly we tok abt..
..shijudeen -.-
shijudeen knows him<3 IIIIILLLLOOOOOOOOVVVVEEEEEYYYYOOUUUU !!!!!!! hees...
chatting wif him.. no mood to post sumore.. BUBBYE SUCKEEEERRRRRRRR !!!!
farhan is <3>

You lied to me...

You hurt me soo bad...

Not becos u once loved him,

im okay wif dat....

But you LIED!

YOU LIED TO ME!

I dunno when to trust you...

I dunno if i should,

I dunno if u care,

if all the shit u said to me over the past months were true,

or just another lie...

But its ok,

i dun wanna fight...

I lost ur trust didnt i?

Bout time u lost mine...

Seeing the good things in life...

2009-02-25T20:53:00.002+08:00

Hey fellas...

feeling awkward today...

I feel both sooooooo damn happy sand sooooo sad.

HAIZ! I SCREWED EMATHS! AND AMATHS! I NEED TUITION! -.-"

heh... so played hide and seek at tech block and around sch wif me homiezz, soo fun luhh.

Benny scared me till i pooped just now. Good job u little smurf!

Well, i stayed bak after sch and revised goeg wif shaunny and the rest,

hope i dun screw it dis time....

Haiz, pening sia... Well...

Other than dat, next week got chort camp! WEE! so fun!

cant wait... i tink ...

WOOHHOOO! FEELING RETARDED AGAIN! HAHA!

WANNA SMACK A HIPPOS BACKSIDE WHILE WEARING A LEOTARD!

AHAHAHAA! ok im done...

wish me luck for tmr ppl, whether good or bad ur choice la...

heh, Cya brothers and sisters... -.- AHAHA!

SUPPOSE TO BE MUGGING BUT HERE I AM TALKING TO YA! LOL!

AHAHAHA!

k bye-.-"

i dunno wad to do...

i dunno wad to say...

but no matter wad i choose,

i noe youll be okay...

I noe i wun be forgiven,

for all dat i did,

but i want u to noe,

ur all dat i need...

Ive failed everyone...

2009-02-23T20:21:00.003+08:00

YO!

Today was an awesome/weird/horrible/funny/donut DAY!

Did flag raising just now..

Reach sch, ritesh told me do la, but i thought i just nid to stand dere.

When i reach the pole there, he tell me do.

I was like WTH!

And i messed it up!

Went to fast, then slow... Music end i still halfway onli O.O

First had eng and malay paper... DAMN easy luhh...

Ill nail them for sure... Then theres amaths...

Rather not talk bout it...

Ok i will...

I FLUNKED! FEELING SO DUMB RITE NOW! UGH!

ah well... cant do shit now... Well, stayed bak after sch... discuss some shit bout pw...

and revise history at same time...

I teach ppl la... I feel so smart...

Those who i tutor, pay 15 dollar fee please.

Im serious-.-"

Now gonna mug physics... ARGH! hate CTs... Few more days...

Then can relak alr... hehe...

Went home, dad was mad cos i was late... stupid pw...

kk, dats all for today, reali nid to mug/play comXD

Oh ya... Shaunny, Good job,

JL, Thank you...

See ya later aligator! Unless you eat me lahh... D:

You give me warmth in the endless snow,

u give me light in dis dark world,

No matter wad, i want u to noe,

Dat you will always be my girl...

Happy 9th month baby..

For the both of us...

2009-02-22T18:35:00.003+08:00

Yo guys!

Im feeling wweeeeeeeiiiirrddddd...

So happy(: and yet so sad):

I wanna cry but i wanna smile... I wanna live, but i wanna die.

I want peanut butter, but i want nutella...

i wanna pee, but i wanna shit... -.- wth -.-

Kay, Benny called me today and we discussed the many different states in America...

FOUND SO MANY BLOODY FUNNY NAMES SIA!

Here are some of Americas states and their bullshit nicknames:

1) CONNENICUT= Can Nani Cut?

2)Delaware= Delbert's underwear XP

3)Idaho= I had a whore

4)Indiana= HAHA! DO I EVEN HAVE TO SAY IT!

5)Kentucky= Dis aint funny, should respect dis place (creator of KFC and Kenny Rogers)

6) Maryland= LAND FULL OF PPL NAMED MARY!

7) Massachussetts= wad kind of name is dis?

8)Mississpi= Missy Sip Pee

9)New Jersey= GET UR NEW JERSEYS HERE!

10) New Mexico= Olah! Wheres the old Mexico?

11) New York (Big Apple)= Wad the hell does dis hav to do wif a big apple? i dun see one...

12) Ohio= oHIo!

13) Oklahoma= Ok la HOMER!

14)Rhode Island= ISLAND OF ROADS

15)Tennessee= Tennis seeeee

16) Utah= Nothing bad happens in Utah!

17) Virginia= Must i say it?

18) Washington= Washing tons

19) West Virginia= U seriously need me say?

20) Wyoming= WE OWE MING!!!!

21)Montana= HAnnah Montana?

22) South Dekota= You naughty boy...

23)North Dekota= Stop u pervert!

24) North Carolina= Not satisfied ah?

25)South Carolina= OH COME ON!

26) ARIZONA= JAYELL LOVES DIS PLACE (reference frm blog)

(credits to Benedict (Bend a dick)

Well dats 20 names... Cool eh? So random -.-

Obama might be mad if he reads dis..

So if we all die frm some catostrophic diaster such like a nuclear explosion dat eradicates us to atoms...

Well, u can blame me, and Benedict of couse

Wwell, mugged like shit today.. Gonna die for Amaths...

Something horrible happened today too. But i dun wanna say it...

Well dats all broz and sisters and gays and lessies and transexuals and animals and miroscopic particles!

See ya later! (except the microscopic particles)

PEACE!

You know u will be alright,

i dunno if i will,

hopefully, time heals our wounds...

But yet,

I still miss you,

I still need you,

And i noe u noe,

I still love you,

Killing me...bit by bit...

2009-02-21T19:32:00.002+08:00

I can take dis pain... Ill just let it take over... Yes... Everywhere hurts, my vision is blurry... But im okay... Cos i noe, dis is for her own good. Slowly dying... I wun expect anything anymore... For another miracle to happen... Im sorry... I tust ur friends to be there for u when times get hard, cos i dun tink ill be... I can take the nightmares, crying myself to sleep, the tears, the pain... Ive felt worse than dis... Ill still be here, no matter wad... U noe i will...

I feel it coming...

2009-02-21T14:45:00.002+08:00

Had chem remedial today... very long, played wif balloons. After dat went to BK wif hakim, ashiq, chris, yu hang, joshua and adam.. Hakim, Ashiq, u owe me cash. heh. Yeah, dats all..

I feel it coming closer,

i know its coming now...

And i wun avoid it,

I wun stop it dis time,

i wun be there to save u,

i wun even save myself, u admitted there were btr out there. I noe there is too.

U want them, not me.

Ill miss u,

u noe i would...

Ur all i want, but i cant have u...

I make everyone sad, im not able to make anyone happy,

especially u...

Others will be there to protect u...

Not me.

Im leaving...

and im not coming back...

i wun hurt u,

i wun hurt myself,

i wun hurt everyone i love,

but i wun be happy,

but so wad?

im not important...

Youll be happy wif me or not,

I noe ur trying ur hardest,

but we have to let go...

I need u,

but u dun need to me,

if ur my light, then ill be blind for u,

if ur my air, ill suffocate for u..

if ur my life, then ill die for u..

U will be happy, trust me,

maybe, somehow,

we will be together again...

Just hope...

Ahh... Contradiction...

2009-02-20T21:18:00.003+08:00

Hey fellas...

Sorry ive beeen out for ssooooooo long, very busy week...

SO MUCH SHIT TO DO!

COS COMMON TEST IS NEXT WEEK!!!

ARGH!

TARTAR SAUCE! FISHBALL SOUP! -.-

well... been mugging my nose off...

damn hard la Amaths, Emaths, Physics... Chem... Everything-.-".

Well, dis week sux and rox, never been so alive in sooo long.

I got hurt alot dis week... and became soo happy...

Wad a contradiction. o.o

Welll... lets see... i found out SS was boring...

I found out dat fencing is awesome...

i found out im more better looking then SUFI'S EX!

HE CAME TO MY SCH TODAY!

I SAW HIM! LOOK AT HIM SLOUCH!

AHA! AHAHAHAAHA!!!

LOOK AT ME ROLL ON THE FLOOR LAUGHING! AHA!

sorry sufi... heh.

kk... was hurt alot too...

rather not talk bout it cos im actuali in a good mood rite now.

WOOHOO! :D

I also failed Emaths apparently... shit la...

Stayed back after sch today... study physics wif me homiez + sufi...

Was quite good la... Went home wif shaun, benny and JAYELL...

DID NOT NOTICE SO LATE LUHH...

Well... im so happy rite now, but the rest of the week so hurt...

aiyo... i tink im going mad... as in retarded...

serious leh...

i keep hurting ppl physically and emotionally... (physically referring to benny)

Well, overall, dis week was awesome, but sucked too.

Next week gonna suck even more...

COMMON TEST SIA! I NOT READY! NOBODY ISSS!!!! Ahh welll... One fail, we all fail... Oh ya...

And shaunny... congratz bro... ur patience was worth it.

Glad to see u smile again. I dun feel so alone no more.

Good job. :D

I still dream every night,

to see my future so bright,

an angel within my sight,

a heaven full of light...

I will......

2009-02-17T19:24:00.005+08:00

Ive done many bad things in life guys....

trust me i have. I have broken more hearts than a normal 14 year old should.

Those hearts will take forever to mend. So i nid to start from now.

I have to repent for the sins i have done.

Im sorry to all ive had hurt. especially you.

I will fix dis.

I will...

Today sch was quite interesting... i tink...

Felt very alone today... Very very alone...

Its like everyone so happy besides me...

I try to be... but i can never be...

Well.. Very long day, had chem test after sch.

Can tahan la... Not so bad luhh. Think can pass.

Uhhh.. went home quite early today, reach at 6.30. YOMG!

Next week common test alr!

AHHH!! IM GONNA FAIL!

Bah... Better start mugging soon eh?

Oh ya, i would like to thank my brothers for all they have done, u guys have always been there for me.

Thank you.

Well... feel alone again right now...

But... Ill rather be alone.

If im alone, i wun hurt and anger those who i care for...

my family, my brotherz, her...

It just aint right. Ive made promises too... and have broken them.

Heh. Guess dats mardhi eh?

Well, im gonna change dat.

I will protect u all..

I will...

I promised ill protect you,

fro harm and anyone...

But wad if i was the one who harmed you,

how can i protect you?

But i will keep my promise,

Even if there's only one way...

You will thank me in time...

I will protect you,

i will...

Why me?

2009-02-16T19:44:00.002+08:00

Hey fellas...

today started off verrryyy awful....

got scolded my a certain SOMEONE...

then got ignored the whole day... Haiz...

Well, i got 9/12 for SS. Woots?

And 17 for Chem... made it to best improvement list...

Had no supp today, so slacked at sch for like so long...

cos shaunny had chem remedial. HAHA!

Met up wif JL and Miraa after sch and treated them ice cream...

then keep spending whole day like some rich ass...

now left so little... SO MUCH SIA! WTH!!!!!! Welll.. hope its worth it. Hehe. Oh ya and thank you for the presents, especially the ring.

LOVE IT!

Im gonna name it Mardhi Jr Jr...

(mardhi jr, im sorry... but i must move on)

I managed to cheer up at end of the day, and my smile was so damn big la...

serious, my face tear...

Even the legendary smiler of CHINA, Nelson Nickleson could not win me....

Well, i hope u guys like ur presents tooo.

Bet you do...

Oh ya, i hope u like Lucy Ann Buttocks.

Take care of her well... She very easy cry. Dun let cookie monster rape her...

Speaking about stuff toys..

I MISS MY TEDDY BEAR DODI!

WHY DID U HAD TO GO?

(starts singing random song)

I miss it la... Haiz... At least his at a btr place now...

(actuali my mum threw him away so probably his at the dump fighting for his life against killer roaches and screaming cockatoos...)

Im actuali in a good mood today(:

dunno why.

ope dis happiness can last...

Please... Dun take it away...

You know u deserve better...

So why pick me?

Oh right...I noe why////

COS IM MARDHI!

Come and go...

2009-02-14T19:46:00.006+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

Hey everyone...

Well... i hope u guys met ur lovers and wad not today,

my opinion,

DUN FALL IN LOVE.

Like delbert once said...

"Love may feel like heaven, but it hurts like hell"

But of course, to me,

ITS WORTH IT!

Heh...

I love you all!

But i love some more...

Haha...

Well,besides dat...

i would like to thank

Shafiq, Veena, Xiao Tian, Benny,

for showing their concern for me for last nights incident.

I will try be happy and throw away my misery kay?

Veena, Xiao Tian, u two really cheered me up just now.

Thanks you so much.

You guys are great friends.

Shaunny, you too bro...

My grandma had cancer at the rectum there,

so it was hard for her to pee...

My dad brought her to the hospital the day before she died...

She was smiling so happily when she was wif my dad...

The doctor was suppose to do something to help her,

but he didnt, and thus... you know...

my aunties and uncles wanted to sue the doctor for not saving grandma's life,

but my dad told them to be patient.

Everything happens for a reason,

and perhaps Allah s.w.t did not want her to suffer any longer...

It was her fate.

It saddened my whole family when my grandma left,

and u guys were there to cheer me up.

U guys have helped me and my whole family wif ur support,

Shafiq, thx for ur words of kindness.

Thank you all... Youve brought a smile back on my face...

Daddy... dun be sad no more,

Grandma loved all her children and grandchildren ,

and u loved her too dad.

Ur a good son,

i wish i could be like u...

Be happy :D

You have made grandma happy throughout her whole life,

Alahamdulillah..

Dari Allah kita datang, kepadaNya kita akan kembali...

Saya berdoa yang kami akan berjumpa sama nenek lagi di syurga.

Insyaallah.

I will change things,

for u,

for me,

for us...

Sooner or later... Rest in peace...

2009-02-13T23:43:00.005+08:00

Friday the 13th...

Most say its unlucky... Well... I dun doubt dat anymore.... T

he day started of fine...Had fencing... was very fun...

Then went to prayers... was so happy for once.

But heaven forbids me from happiness. Someone called me when i was praying..

after prayers, i read a message from my mum.

She told me to call her asap and i read dat my grandma was GOING TO die..

I called her and she told me to rush home, and pon NP (sorry shaunny)

Called my mum when rushing to school. I had misunderstood.

Grandma had alr passed away.

I was dumbfounded, but was in denial.

I met wif my sister at Paya Lebar and went home. My sisters eyes were wet wif tears.

I held my tears back... reached home and prepared to go visit grandma...

Went to grandmas house.

Everyone was crying or being strong for the others.... I could not stand so much misery in one place. Waited for a while and they brought grandma out....

She was wrapped and i could not believe wad i was seeing. tears flooded out of my eyes...

I could not take it... Mama cried and so did daddy... It hurts me most to see them cry...

They unwrapped the top portion of the cloth to reveal grandmas forehead...

All the unlces and aunties sprinkled pacai over grandmas head and kissed her forehead...

I did the same... I held back my tears...

Then we payed our respects to grandma...

Wishing dat she will rest in peace.

We brought her downstairs where she was brought in a van to the cemetary, we followed on a bus... Saw her getting lowered into her grave and a coffin put over her corpse.

Everyone cried in grief...

We all prayed to Allah s.w.t dat she will be blessed and loved even after death...

Today was a sad day for me...

though happy for others, who were celebatrating valentine's day...

I would like to thank shaunny, for being there for me and accompanying me...

Ridhwan, Adam and the other malay guys for supporting me....

and all those who were sad wif me on dis day.

Thank you alll.... I willl never forget all our memories grandma...

i will never wish for a better grandmother than urself...

Grandma, rest in peace...

*Innalillahhi wainnaillaihi rajiun*

"Ya Allah s.w.t, saya memohon kepada engkau untuk ampunkahlah dos-dosa neneku dan membukakan pintu syurga untuk nenekku, Saodah Bte Harun. Amin"

If u dun care for me...

why should i?

When will the pain stop?

Hurting those u care for most...

2009-02-10T21:41:00.002+08:00

hey guys...

err... not doing so well today. many bad things happen.

got 12.5 for geog... and some other shit...
so depressed...

feel like slashing myslef like i used to... but i promised someone i wun...

Its just.. i dun seem to be able make anyone happy anymore. make them smile...

just like i cant make myself smile....

i seem to ruin everyone's lives...

Those who i were suppose to protect from harm... are those who i harm the most...

I cant take it...

Ive made so many ppl cry over the years... my mum... even my dad...

The girl i loved most... I dun deserve their forgiveness.

After all ive done, their still willing to forgive and forget.

I will never forgive myself... nor will i forget wad ive done...

No... Ill never do dat.

It hurts so bad to do the exact thing u are trying to prevent.

No matter how hard i tried today... or any other day...

i just cant see the same beautiful smile i wanna see...

Only friends are capable of dat. I will never be.

I dunno wad to no more.... I wanna curl p in bed... and sleep forever...

so dat i wun hurt anyone no more.

I cant bear the pain of hurting my loved ones...

My heart has weakened over the months...

I cant stand it... Someone save me... If u cant do dat....

Kill me...

All i wanna see is dat smile...

even if i dun get to...

Ill do wad must be done,

so dat i can see

dat smile on ur face..

even if my own smile

leaves me...

2009-02-09T22:09:00.009+08:00

Lets do dis homiezzz..

(part where we tackle each other)

Having fun :D

LOOK! I CAN SWIM!

Aww... soon to be wet cash. :D

"Convincing Nikhil"

THROWING JOVAN :D

Pics from yesterday's party.. WOOHOO!

I KNOW WE ROCK!

Deciding...

2009-02-09T21:57:00.005+08:00

Well... today was a shitty day... i mean literally..

i had diarrehoe/dirrahoe/ i serious dunno HOW TO SPELL...

fine... i had melted faeces. :D

well... took bus to sch... thought was gonna be early..

but stupid traffic congestion made me very late.

Halfway when walkig to sch... my stomach activated...

and i ran like a maniac chasing after a hot girl to school...

Reach school... everyone go audi alr...

but i wanted go toilet first, but the security guard stopped me and told me go report i late first.

WTH LA! I WAS DYING AND MY RECTUM WAS GONNA BLOW!

i cursed and begged the guard but he forced me to report...

(thinking i wanna run away)(actuali partly i did)

i ran to the counsellors and report and ran to the toilet...

After KABOOMING, i went to audi.... and sch went off as per normal...

Mid day... stomach hurt like SHIT (lame pun eh? XD)

and i went to kaboom again...

do emaths test... i flunked...

And had detention after sch... woohoo... so fun...went home... took bus...

praying i wun shit.

well dats all folks.

Now go get me a lollipop.

NOW!

Lesson of the day: EAT FOOD NOT POISON NIMROD!

Dun say u dun make me happy,

you do...

but do i make u happy?

I dun nid the answer,

i alr noe...

Happy times... :D

2009-02-08T22:47:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TARA!!!!

Well, today, was a totally rocking day!!!

i mean seriously, there were rockslides everywhere!!!! o.o I met marcus and benny at Parkway Parade to meet the other ppl

(jeanette, esther, gloria, sheng chieh, jowie, jovan, phillip, alvin, nikhil MANI)

who are going to the surprise birthday party!

(which is not a surprise anymore, or is it?)

Well i met up wif them then we go to the sovereign at meyer road there...

awesome place i must admit.

Met joaquin there too.

Tara's friends were there too...all look so damn old compared to us.... WOW.

All of her frens look just like her...certaion parts laaa... (if u noe wad i mean -.-")

Well, tara came, then she cried cos joaquin molested her...

nah...she cried cos she was so touched (by joaquin)

dat we all were there for her surprise party...

well, we got bored.... ate some delicious cake...

then we played some 'who knows tara best' game... then we got bored again...

so we thought :"hmm... were all next to the pool and were all dry?"

So we decided to throw some pathetic person in and person number one was.... JOVAN!

Well, while we were laughing our butts off at the cursing jovan,

we decided we were not satisfied, so we threw nikhil!!!

while i was laughing at nikhil's misery, some nimrod kicked me and i fell in....

WOOHOOOO!!!!! dat was awesome!

then everyone got dumped in the pool one by one... some more than once (mostly me luhhh) Then we went to play wif some lizard which was pathetically drowning in the pool...

i named him norman. :D!!!

Then the pizza came... I LOVE PIZZA!!!!!

Ate at the side of the pool... chatted, then notice it was way past curfue time...

but i figured my parents wun be dat mad....

so i figured they will pick me up. XP (which they did)

Played some Bball, but i just watched.... Haha.

Then at 8pm, we all decided to go home...

But my parents fetching me, so i waited at the busstop wif delbert and FiFi...

My parents arrived minutes later and i invited delbert and FiFi to take a ride in the car wif us and ill drop them off somewhere...

Delbert said yes but Sufi was obviously scared of my paernts but in the end said yes after some persuading.

After dropping delbert off... it was pretty awkward in the car...

Sufi was OBVIOUSLY scared to the core... sit so still, keep looking at phone...

while i tried to hold in my laughter...

When reach bedok mrt, she drop off and practically ran out of the car. Why the hell was she so scared? Not like i look lime some foreign worker from bangladesh rite... wait....O.o

Welll... overall, today was an awesome day...and after a long time, im smiling once more.

Please dun take it away dis time?

Very hard to find ya noe... O.O

Ive made many wrong decisions...

but i did not make a wrong decision...

in loving you...

Sorry will never be enough...

2009-02-07T09:20:00.002+08:00

Hey brothers and sisters...

err havnt posted in two days... not having a good life lately...

Im always in a bad mood, i curse and scold everyone i see... including my parents and homiezzz. Im sorry for dat.

Truly am. ill try to stop kay?

Be the old mardhi bak. having really bad times lately... every second hurts so much.

Its like living wif a knife through the heart,

and not doing anything to take it out, instead,

forcing it deeper into ur dying heart.

Can hardly breathe after wad ive done to her yesterday... but wad do u say...

when sorry aint enough?

To my one and only: "Im sorry... for yesterday...you dun have to forgive me... and by all means, hate me. I noe wad i did was wrong. I noe ive hurt u to the soul. And the worst part was i did it on purpose... But i had my reasons of doing dat kay? Its not cos im an asshole (although i am but not in dis context) ... not cos ive fallen for another girl... not cos i stopped loving u, i never will.... alll those words i said yesterday, i didnt mean it... i promise u dat. But u noe... and i noe... dat ill never be the best for you... you dun noe, how hard it is to see an angel cry, and the whole thing being ur fault. how every tear pierces deeper and deeper into a shattering heart. I promised ill protect u... but to be the person who harms u... how can i protect. Ive failed u..again and again and again, but yet u still hold on. So dun. There will be a better guy for u out there and u noe it. Let fate decide.... But i promise u ill be there for u no matter wad, whether ur mine or not. If i cant be ur love, ill be ur guardian angel. I just want u to noe dat im sorry for yesterday. Ive hurt u so bad. Till a point where u hated me to the core. Ill never forget wad i said to u. Ill never forget ur face when i said dat, how ur mouth trembles and ur eyes grow watery... You dun need me angel, u noe u dun. Im not the only thing dat makes u smile. u dun need an asshole like me. Ur friends can make u happy too. So why should i be here? Ill never forgive myself for yesteray, even if u forgive me. Like i said, sorry will never be enuf.

The world gets colder....

2009-02-05T19:53:00.002+08:00

Hey guys...

sorry i nvr post yesterday... laptop died when i was about to press 'post'.

Well... I DID GREAT ON YESTERDAYS TEST!

I OWNED IT! WOOHOO!!! LOOK AT ME FALUNT AT SHOW OFF!

Kay im done...so besides the OWNED test...

me, shaun, DELBERT and benny went home together yesterday and made a real wird observation about a black pidgeon...

as it walked...

it was bobbling its head like some indian and we were laughing our butts off at it

(we had to chase our butts which were running away after we laughed them off -.-")

I named the bird BENEBERT...

as delbert and benny saw the bird first...

lol...it sounds like BEND A BIRD! awesome huh?

i noe...just like me. o.o

Well...today was uhh...okay i guess...

alvin and hidayat were really entertaining in todays's supplymentery class...

eem to be playing some

"who can laugh first at the other persons weird face" game.

Once again i laughed my buttock off and had to search for it...

hmm.. also saw a guy wif GIANT MAN BOOBS yesterday...

Laughed like shit again... As they jiggled disgustingly frm left to right...

so hypnotysing...

and alot of random shit la happened...forgot half...

these two days were great... and i seem to hate the world less... and btw...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIKHIL SURSH CHANDIRAMANI!!!

(p.s. nikhil... shanve ur HAIR!!! IM AN ASSWIPE!!!!)

I dunno wad to do...

Somebody...

Help me...

Please...

Screw life...

2009-02-03T19:18:00.003+08:00

HOLLYY SHHIITTT!!!

I LEFT MY GEOG BOOK AT SCHOOL!!!!

CANNOT REVISE FOR TMR TEST! GONNA DIE!!!!

ah well..screw it... life just keeps getting worse,

so i should just say hi to horrible shit, and hug it...

(making me very smelly but why the hell should i care eh?)

Ok... roeberts dead (may he rest in peace),

i just flunked my amaths test (screw amaths)

i got low for both chem and physics, and dun tink i did well for todays tests (screw science)

i hav to do something i dun want to (screw stuff i dun wanna do)

and lastly my chair's leg is unscrewed

(screw the chair...seriously i nid somewhere to sit when i write...)

well the whole world is beginning to suck rite now...but hell...if the everything sucks... NOTHING DOES? RIGHT?

ahahaahahahaha!!!! I CRACK MYSELF UP!

(now screw me too before my organs leak out)

(benedict, im gona stranbgle u tmr when i turn into mardhi mode. WATCH OUT!!)

well i gotta go... catch u later...

screw life!

screw u all!

haha...

love giving away SCREWS!!!

im sorry...

i never meant to hurt you...

if u ever wanna stop the pain i giv u...

u noe wad to do...

i just hope ur happy(:

Pretending everything is fine...To make it better...

2009-02-01T21:00:00.003+08:00

Hey yo guys, feeling a bit stressed today...

so many things on my mind... haiz.

A maths test today... tink im gonna pass! (soooo not)...

tmr got physics and chem AGAIN i tink...

well, anyways, kind of pmsing today and whole of yesterday..

find fault wif everyone... have a very bad feeling im PREGNANT.

LAWLS!!!

sometimes i happy, sometimes sad..

so fast change some more...

MOOD SWINGS i tell you.. ah well...being pregant will be cool...

if its a gal, ill name her mardhiah or mardiana...

if its a guy, mardhi junior...or i came name him after all my homies...so it will be something like.. Shabenedhiquincuschieh?

Lol. Awesome name eh?

hahas...well yesterday sucked more, wanted to post but daddy was mad at me...

i got la my reasons for my sucky life, but i cannot fix these problems, dats wad suck most...

i seem to hate the whole world..

wonder why...someone make me happy...

MAKE ME SMILE(:

Does it please you to see me in pain?

Does it make u smile to see me cry?

If it does make u happy, hurt me all u wan... just promise me...

smile(:

In a better place now...

2009-01-31T18:12:00.004+08:00

Hey guys...

just returned from robert's funeral...

so many ppl crying...

which led to half of robert's family drowning in my family and relatives tears...

i tink i squashed robart, robert's bro....sorry robert...

ill miss you... rest in peace mini bro...

well i went to hospital today...met up wif cuzzins...their a fun lot. :D

anyhooo....both my grandmas are sick now...

one wif internal bleeding and the other wif cancer...

so please ppl... do me a favour?

Pray theyll be okay?

I love them ya noe...

Other than the hospital, i went to eat ALOT. Im amazed at my eating skills LOL.

shld reali stop myself frm gobbling things up so fast. o.o

haha...well dats all for today...

one more thing, you owe me ten bucks so

PAY UP OR BE FORCED TO BELLY DANCE WIF ME!

(p.s. i own at belly dancing)

Why am i even here?

When im not wanted,

or needed?

Right...

Cos i love you...

Farewell...Old friend...

2009-01-31T15:40:00.002+08:00

Good afternoon ladies and gentlemen...

We are gathered here today, to mourn over the loss of our beloved ant and friend...

Robert Melville...

Through every ant's life,

they onli wish to achieve helping out the queen and biting innocent human buttocks...

he indeed served his cause...

Though we onli knew him for such a short while,

he will always stay in our thoughts and in our hearts...

The way he died...was tragic and merciless..

squashed to death by an evil DAREN!!!

but yet, i can see he died in peace...

i would like to thank Veena, Shaun, Kimberley, Xiao Tian, ME and DAREN

for being there to witness the loss of our wonderful comrade...

Robert...hopefully, you are in a btr place now...

Rest in peace dear friend...

*bursts into tears crying and rolling on floor like crazy lunatic! ROBERT!!!!DUN GO!!!!*

Those who were there...

2009-01-30T21:32:00.003+08:00

I would like to dedicate dis post to the ppl who have saved me so many times in my school life. Not literally...But they saved me in other ways....they are my homies (we are finding name for our gang soon..relax ah babe)

They are my best friends...they are my brothers...

MARCUS TANG: to me...dis big guy is my so called our bigger brother in our gang... he cares bout us the most among all our homies...always trying to help whenever were down...loves basketball and loves balls... I met him in a very weird way...

I bumped into him and he was like...

Marcus: "watch where u going asshole...all u indians are the same!"

Me:"WTH! IM MALAY DAMMIT!!!!"

Marcus:"OMG! Im sorry...my old best friend was malay...so wads ur name?"

And we became friends...

So dude...Im sorry if i scolded or cursed or underappreciated you...

Im an asshole...i noe im one... So im sorry..

Thank you bigger bro...

JOAQUIN: HAHAHA! supperr funny guy...he can make everyone laugh, especially me..his my same age brother to me...

his the persisent little bugga dat will keep cracking jokes

to me until i laugh and break out frm my bad mood

or PMS dat day -.-"

How i met him...hmm...we were sitting next to each other in class..

then we glaced at each other,

we both looked away..

i looked at him, he looked away...

he looked at me and i looked away...

then we both suddenly stared at each other wif burning eyes and hatred...

for like 5 mins...

we were suddenly in a stare war O.O

after 5 mins, my eyes became red and i looked away..

he laughed in triumph and said "hey im joaquin"

and we became frens...Well, thx man for being such an annoyance for these two years..

u make me laugh when im down, and i TANK u for dat...

GO JOKE KING!!

BENEDICT: His small, his hyper...his BENEDICT!!! Dis little white nigga is also supper caring and fun to be wif! I consider him as my lil bro...

uhh...cos his small?

LOL!

Im not reali sure hw i met him...

although i rmb its related to some black insult...

He is the most dedicated to the gang and is so called the person keeps us together...

like a screw keeps a chair together...

or a chain in a chainsaw... without him, we cant cut nobody's guts...

He also cares for the homies the most,

but he shows it differently frm marcus....

Well, all i can say, without him in our gang, we wun feel so big anymore...

(dat was not an insult...or was it? o.O)

SHENG CHIEH: Welcome newest member!!!! t takes a long time to be a homie u noe...

I would like to congratulate u for ur success, but u still hav to go through initiation u noe...

well, dis guy, the strongest among us, and the most buffed up..

his loyal to us, and he always hangs out wif us...

always right and happy, u just cant help but be happy when his there...

He saved my life u noe...

i was all emo, my heart was in pain...

i couldnt see, i was blind...

i walked straight into the road, i wanted to die...

saw a red van thorugh blurred eyes...

closed my eyes, waited to die...

for the pain to go away...

and suddenly, something pulled me towards the pavement,

opened my eyes, i wasnt dead? o.o

SC was the one who saved me and he was like,

"WTH u doing?"

Lol, so i owe him my life, so congrats newest bro,

UR A HOMIE!

SHAUN: SHAUNNYYY...my bestest of my best frens... tink of him as my twin bro... cool eh?

haiz..i dunno hw to express my gratitude towards my dis brother. I MEAN HIS AN ELEPHANT. lol. -.- no la...his just super HOT! HAHA!!

his super friendly, and sociable, and RANDOM,

just like me...

I rmb how i met him, wait i dun,

cos we were frens for 10 YEARS!! :D

Ive seen him change over the years, from some big walrus like nerd to dis overly HOT guy he is now... and being best frens wif the hottest guy...

OWNZZZ!!!

well, his always been there for me,

i share everything wif him,

my problems, my secrets, my password to the secret chambers of bras....

so if u wanna tell me sumting, be prepared to tell shaun!

well BESTIE, YOU OWN!!!

and i wanna thank u for always being there...

THANKS!

So guys, thank u for everything...u guys are the best...

HOMIEZ 4EVA!!!

Gimme a smile...Cos i lost mine... D:

2009-01-30T20:35:00.000+08:00

Today was err...AWESOME!!!!

lol i dun even noe why....kk sch was fine...cos friday ownzzz, not much studying....

and then had NP!!! YEA!!!! WOW!!! IM HYPERRR!!!!

feel like slapping some purple baboons ass or something...

Ah well, im gonna go bunjee jump after dis...wanna join? :D

haha...where was i...

oh rite, s

o i went home wif shaun and some others after one great day -.-"...

Oh ya and during NP, i keep disturbing Veena...

call her gwok and wad not...so easy la she smile and laugh...haha. so cute, like me! O.o

Oh ya and shaunny...

Ur a great brother and friend, glad to hav a friend like u man...

*knuckles shaun, misses, hits head*

EAT DAT SUCKA! XP

I lost my heart...

cos i gave it to you...

You stole my heart....and i dun ever want it back...

2009-01-29T18:54:00.001+08:00

Wazzup people!

Kk... Dis week was bullshit... i mean like wow!

Firstly, i lost my ring yesterday...

then i got busted (no way am i going into details)

and lastly, some fat ah mah tackled me to the wall before rubbing an onion on my nose.

Then she ran off screaming "NUUGEN".

i noe. u do not see dat everyday.

On the bright side, met dis cool kid on the way bak...

Wei Jie if im rite.. He had a moustache, while i dun.

Bloody jealous >.<

So he just walked up to me and shaunny and was like..

"wazzup schoolmates"

and he started talking to us.. also saying

dat i looked scarier than shaun..Wad can i say...Im black... o.o

Then at white sands old chang kee some random guy walked up to me and shaun and scolded us for not knowing hw to queue up. -.-"

wow... we both so sociable...

Ppl naturally attracted to me one...

Why?

I MARDHI WAD!

I may have to see her go...

But she will always take a part of me wherever she goes...

My heart <3...

Its hers forever...