Nothing without you...

Welcome to my life....

The name is Mr Mardhi Marshal. Things u should noe bout me, im random, friendly and im a guy.. Or am i? o.O Now dun go round insulting my name cos i love it. It means "the blessed one"in arab and i am indeed blessed. Thank you Allah... Me email is mardhirox@hotmail.com :D

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Walking away...

ChrisToPher! :DD
Esther! :D
Gloria! :D
JAY ELL! :D
JAY EXX! :D
Jeanette! :D
MarCus! XD
ShafiQ! :O
Shaunny! XD
Sheng Chieh! XD
SUFI! :P
XiaoTian(:
VeeNA! :O
Zul! :D
SiuYen! :O
Looking back.

January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
November 2009

Thank you.

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Monday, November 16, 2009

OH DAMN YOU PISSED ME OFF BAD DIS TIME. Dun test my patience. Trust me, you will regret it, even if u are a girl. FUCK MAN. IT WILL ALWAYS BE HIM RIGHT?! ALWAYS HIM. WHOSE UNFAITHFUL NOW?!!!! ONE MORE TIME. ONE MORE TIME YOU SCREAM AND HANG UP THE PHONE, youll wish u were never born.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

One final week

Fuck this shit man. I smsed one girl, wif no intention of hurting you... cos i felt u would be okay wif it. Due to this stupid mistake, u hate me nw. U wanna hurt me nw. U wanna kill me now. Yes. Im unfair. Yes, ive hurt u more than anyone else in the world. So yes, u have the right to hate me. But... i dunno... I just noe dat i need u. i love u. I need u like air. My eyes are swollen. My heart shattered. My body unable to move. But u wun care anymore would u. Just several days ago... u said... " I love you" and i smiled bak happily. U said... u are happy wif me and sad when im sad. But u aint sad now are u? Ur happy... wif others, while im crumpled up inside my empty bedroom, begging for another chance which i will never be given. And worse part of all, i didnt mean to hurt u dis time. Not at all. I didnt expect such a perfect day, to change into a nightmare that was excruciatingly painful. I asked for forgiveness and u gave me silence. After all these months wif u, my heart has turned frail. easily hurt... Now ur phone is switched off. And so are ur ears. You wun listen to wad i have to say cos u say i will not be forgiven this time. And for dat i will burn in hell for eternity. To tell u the truth, i dun mind. I dun mind at all. I will gladly burn in hell for u. I just dunno wad to do anymore. you wun listen, u wun pick up the phone, u ignore me, and u cant give a god damn fuck bout how i am doing. Maybe when u found out i was dead, ull realize wad u did to me. You ask me to forget u... BUT HOW THE FUCK CAN I?! U MADE ME FUCKING FALL IN LOVE WIF YOU, AND NOW U THROW ME AWAY LIKE IM NOTHING? Nothing can save me now. i just wish dis all never happened, and that day would have ended up like it should... perfect. God damn my fucking mistakes. God damn my fucking heart, for not caring for you and mistreating u. SOMEBODY TELL ME WAD TO DO. Cos u wun be there anymore. You wun be there to help me when i fall. You wun be there to comfort me anymore. And u definitely wun be there for me anymore, to tell me those three words dat give me reason to smile. Dammit. This has to be the most painful experience i ever had. FUCK. IVE LOST EVERYTHING!!!!! BOTH My grandmas left me, my studies are failing, i can feel my friends drifting away, everything hurts, everything i do is wrong, TONS of ppl hate me, and the person i rely on most to be there... the person who would without fail cheer me up at the end of the day wants to... HAS left me. I dunno how u do it baby. Maybe there is someone else over there comforting you. Maybe its ur god damn BAND which always without fail makes u smile and happy, sth i was never able to do. After all ive done and after all that ive tried, BAND won in the end. She is willing to leave me but not dat god damn CCA. I dun like assuming.. but evidence keeps telling me to. Maybe she never loved me. Maybe everyone was right. She never loved me. I mean why should she. Im a bastard to everyone, i have ego, i want what i want, im slefish beyond believe, im overpossesive, easily jealous... And judging frm wad u said yesterday.... u onli stayed wif me cos u found me pathetic. Cos i threatened u, dats why u always came bak. Not cos u love me. HAHAHAHAHAHA! I actually fell for it... good one baby. Good one. I know im pathetic. I know im useless and somebody who u should not give a fucking hell about. But Sufinasuha, i need you. I need you so much. I never slept last night. I cant stop thinking bout u. I still need you baby. Without u, im nothing... so please forgive me. For wadever love u have left. For wadever we used to be.. come bak to me. No matter wad... i will always love you sufi. always... Even if u dun. Without u, im dead. Dead.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Sorry's just nt enuf..

Even death is not a fitting punishment for wad i have to you

im sorry. Ive hurt you.

very badly.

But plz, stop crying.

Pick up the phone...

Saturday, September 12, 2009

THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO COMMENTED AND NOTICED MY HAIR!!!

Haha really appreciative.

Well forcing myself to be happy right nw. Lols.

Err.. rough morning.

lost sth very precious to me.

Doubt ill find it again.

I wish my grandma would get better.

Makes the whole family worried. D:

Pretty much it.

Thx most of u :D

Ill still be here if u want me.

Heh.

Just wish you appreciated ppl more -.-

ah well..

good luck btw,

i hope i could be there but i cant.

Sorry.

but ull be okay right?

Haiz.

Wish i would though D;

Thursday, September 10, 2009

REBORN!

The process

the end result :D

MY HAIR IS FINALLY STRAIGHT!

AFTER SO LONG,

MARDHI BIN MARSHAL

HAS REBORNED

HIS HAIR!!!

No this is not a lie.

I actually went to loyang point today

and reborn my hair.

My curly hair is gone and i look AWESOME.

Based on your opinion la..

Well, despite the fact i was burnt by the straightener and had to remove my back hair, it was worth it..

MARDHI IS REBORN!!!

MUAHAHAHAHA!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

I FEEL SO DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, September 6, 2009

TAKBIR!

Assalamualaikum warah ma tulah hi wabarakatul!

Hey! Just came bak from RAMADHAN YOUTH CAMP also known as RYC camp.

Though it was slightly boring and annoying sometimes,

it was very beneficial.

Somehow, i tink the lessons thought came through to me..

And one of the three objectives of the camp reali changed me :

*Spark for a change*

I feel dat it really touched me somehow.

First day was ice breakers which were quite fun,

followed by some biase session of spiritual jamming

followed by giving porridge to passerbys at tampines interchange

and then some cool session of violent "bubble trouble"

(something like dog and bone but wif rugby contact and slippery floors)

Err then at night we went all the way to pasir ris park

and had to stay up all the way till sahur next morning.

I WAS FALLING ASLEEP AND PART ZOMBIE ALR lol.

but at leats we still managed to sleep for 1hr plus YAY!

And then we went home.

BEST PART OF THE CAMP WAS THE FACILITATORS!

my FACIs were Abang Mat and Abang Z.

THEY WERE THE FUNNIST PAIR iN THE WHOLE CAMP!

One is a michael jackson wannabe and the other is just a very fun big guy lol.

So ya, amazingly the camp was ok and helpful.

Though i gt serious time lapse.

Hopefully i do turn over a new leaf :D

Insyaallah..

To be a better muslim :D